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Sunday, June 28, 2009

i'm a house woman currently. title given by dear mister, since i am not yet a housewife. heh.

my main priority currently is to take care of nenek. i hardly goes out, except to get groceries from supermarkets, which dear mister has been kindly sending and accompanying me to. i even went to market, after so so long. i rmb how i, and cuz, loves tagging nenek to de market last time. we get to pick what we want for ourselves, and of course, we do learn a lil abt where to get the stuffs and whats de name of whatever is there. seeing the age i was at that time, of course i've forgotten it now. hah. and i still rmb how nenek used to let us have breakfast, or lunch, at the coffeeshop while she go buy the things.

now, we've all grown up. i still have not carry out the dream nenek used to have. of me getting my car license, which i already did, and to send her to the market, with my own car, and that i am still working on.

it's amazing how time flies. it's amazing looking back and realizing what a great childhood i had. and of course, it's amazing how much He loves me, to give me all the wonderful people in this world, for me to love.

i went JB with parents, bro and cuz on Thurs. maybe i'll upload the photos next time. met Syida too on Mon, i guess. and i've been researching on stuffs. and earlier on had tuition for 3-4 hours. tomorrow dear mister will fetch me in the morning, and if things go well, yet another new chapter will unfold in my life.

and i still don't know what's gotten over me. i just hope it'll vanish away.

Beary Hugzzz @ |11:47 PM|

Friday, June 19, 2009

i think its time to just mention it. not that i dont want to, but time kind-of disallow me to do so.

it's been a week since I resigned. well, not exactly. i sent my resignation on Sunday, or you can say, Monday morning. whatever consequences it may bring, i'm willing to bear it.

i do love my job. i learnt many things, and perhaps still learning. they treated me good, perhaps everyone. of course here and there i was complaining, but i don't think i lasted for nearly two years if i so hate it.

but there's many things that have been going on. now, my priority is just to be with nenek, take care of her, and just be there with her.

i've been spending days in the hospital. i've been spending days as a housewoman, as someone put it. i've been spending days staying up throughout the night where nenek needs me most, and taking naps in the afternoon, of course. i am no superwoman. and yes, i still do other work, which not everyone knows of.

something happened earlier. and with all my heart, i hope that He answers our prayers.

this is life. and until you go through it, you wont understand it.

thanks for being there for me, always.

Beary Hugzzz @ |11:43 PM|

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

ok. am currently waiting for him to come and fetch me. still in his other office. and still has yet to pray. i was given two choices, to go over and meet him there, or wait right here for him to fetch. i thought the first sounded nice, so i could perhaps go walk walk there, and then i rmb de crowd at this time and yes, the fact that i'm too bored to walk around myself. ok fine, simply, i dont wish to take the public transport, esp not at this time. aiyoh, why so difficult to say.

well not really my fault. he prefer to come down and fetch me since im un-contactable once i leave office. how fun.

ive been spending time alone like 80% of the time in office today. i was hoping that i could see them to voice out some matters. but well, tmr is still possible.

nenek's condition is still unstable. i hate to see her in such pain. i hate the creeping fear inside of

me. i want her to get well. i want her to be like what she used to be. i miss her, seriously.

alot has been happening. i dont even noe wats right and wats wrong. whos right and whos wrong.

watever happen is because Allah has willed it so. if people do bad to you, only He knows the best way of repaying it back to them.

ok did i mention i am only currently reachable at my home number or office number? ok well, take note.

i am still considering my decision. the options available. i cant continue letting my body and mind work like i'm some superwoman. it's damaging me, and others.

take care all.

Beary Hugzzz @ |6:22 PM|

Sunday, June 07, 2009

i know i havent been blogging for long.

work's been as usual. busy. just ended second workshop yesterday.

also mostly because of grandma's condition. i dont want to comment much about it. all is we pray that she'll get well soon.

and of course, de pressure from it all. i dont seem to know whats right and wats wrong anymore. i dont know what im doing. wat im going to do. and of course, wat im supposed to be doing.

i hope it all ends well. insyaAllah.

Beary Hugzzz @ |9:47 PM|

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