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Tuesday, January 27, 2009

So it's Tuesday. Doesn't feel like it as we're all at home, slacking. I have this love/hate relationship with holidays. Sometimes I like it, sometimes it's torturous as the day goes by with nothing, practically nothing to do.

Anyway, there was eclipse yesterday. The first I heard of it was last week on the radio, at work. And then I forgot about it, until daddy rushed to the mosque to solat sunat gerhana, and sis was saying her friends could see the eclipse from Sentosa. I didn't see it, cause I couldn't see the sky from my house, or well, my room, seriously. And I couldn't be bothered to go out of the house. And reading the news, they say it was clear, and thousands of ppl were at Science Ctr and mosque to look at it. Now I miss it.

Oh well. There'll be another one in July, they say. On the other hand, I laughed too much yesterday. Till my stomach hurts and tears rolling. I wouldn't go deeper into it. And oh, we had reunion dinner too, as a family. Because of my craving for Mcs Prosperity Burger, we all had Mcs for dinner. But I don't know why the burger doesn't taste as superb as when I had it with him. But yes, Alhamdulillah.

Back to work tomorrow. I think I have to go to the doc for 1001 reasons. And need an injection where my feelings will not go haywire. If not, someone is bound to suffer. ;)

Ok, I'm going. There's Chandramukhi playing soon. =)

Beary Hugzzz @ |11:57 AM|

Sunday, January 25, 2009

I am still ok.

So we've shifted to the other office. It's a much much longer walk from the MRT, unlike Sg Post which is so super-friendly. Of course it matters now, cause I have to walk to Lakeside if daddy can't send me, and have to walk to office. All because his 'darling' decided to give us some exercise. Feet have been hurting bad, I have to make do with crocs everyday so I could walk, decently.

But there's a great coffeeshop just below our office. And we keep wanting to grab(well,BUY!) something from there. Drinks are like always, and food too. They sell great food! And the office is so much more quieter (except for the radio which we on super loud), as security is tighter there. No guests are allowed in unless they seek permission, and the parents were caught at the carpark as they have to have the code in, as they were meeting me for lunch on Thursday, so daddy ended up having to park somewhere else after he rejected my offer for unlocking the door for them. Ok so that was the first I had lunch with the parents since I start working over a year ago.

We're still restructuring, getting back on track. As for us, I don't know what to say. I was badly hurt, and all I want to do is sleep so this brain will just stop thinking, and even a minute seems bliss.

I should be strong, make a decision, and get on with life.

It's Chinese New Year tmr. To all my Chinese friends, Happy Lunar New Year!

Beary Hugzzz @ |8:50 PM|

Sunday, January 18, 2009

i've been too tired to blog. indeed, i'm lazy to even sit here and use the comp.

i hasn't started work as per usual. just the shifting, moving, packing and unpacking of stuffs. tomorrow i'll continue with the unpacking and arranging of stuffs. i'll miss my old office, my old own space. but for now, i'll make do with what i have in the meantime.

there's just so much happening. Alhamdulillah we're together, sharing, in going through all this.

i am just going with the flow.

insyaAllah He has arranged something that is beneficial and is the utmost best for all of us.

Beary Hugzzz @ |4:39 PM|

Monday, January 12, 2009

2009 started with my paternal grandma admitted in hospital. on Friday noon, she went back to where she belongs.

the last that i saw her was in the hospital. her last words were that she prayed i get a good man and her words of thanks. auntie said she's always calling out for me at her place. and i remembered very well i was the one who fetched her from her place the day before Raya, and how she insisted on not leaving with me as she feels more comfortable at her own's. that was the last she was home.

maybe i still feel guilty over that.

anyway, i love you grandma. tho i didn't spend much time with you, i will always love you. Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas Rohnya.

and yes, it's my paternal grandma. colleague thought it was maternal grandma. i wouldn't be here now if that is so. i wouldn't be at work 2 days after the loss. i wouldn't be like how i am. and no, i don't even want to imagine it.

Fri. i was on the way to Joo Chiat for the meeting. Expo was cancelled and therefore the change of venue. and the bro called to tell me of grandma's departure. so he made sure i was fine and get me to go back before he proceeded to solat Jumaat. i went to aunt's hse at Sembawang and spent some time with my darling boy. he's grown to be so naughty, yet super lovable.

i spent till after midnight at aunt's, spending some time alone in the room where grandma's body is. i hasn't been a good granddaughter.

the next morning we were there early. daddy,bro and grandma slept over at aunt's. i gotta go home cos has to accompany mummy has to finish her cakes which ppl ordered. after kubur (and visiting late aunt's and great grandma's), uncle sent us home straight. my head was spinning, it's been days.

Sunday. i went back office. and the other office to clean up. and today, i cleaned up my office. I will be posted to the other office. and now, my whole body is aching.

tomorrow. packing up again. my body hurts, but it's fun. =)

Beary Hugzzz @ |9:07 PM|

Thursday, January 08, 2009

I'm supposed to have a meeting at Changi Airport today. But it was cancelled late last night.

I'm supposed to go somewhere else, if not for the meeting. But ended up, I didnt go too.

And now, just receive a call that grandma's in critical condition. Heartbeat is too low. The doctor has pumped but is still in critical condition, and so he got daddy to hurry there.

So what am I doing here? I just dont know. Bro is calling. I heard the word hospital, I couldnt really make up his other words cos I was just staring blankly on his face.

He's driving now. If only I can get him to send me to hospital.

I think I better get out of here.

Beary Hugzzz @ |4:37 PM|

Friday, January 02, 2009

Its 2009. I don't know why but it feels just the same. Of course it's the same, just that the calenders have to be changed and we all are getting older. :)

I am NOT working today. like, for the first time i am NOT working when everyone else are working. ok, it's not a personal leave. its given by my boss cos the office is closed. what a long break, yet nothing to do cause it's all just at the wrong time.

well, the New Year was spent at Filmgarde(its been our fav cinema since its opened) with him, watching Australia. we got half day on Wed, but i wanted to be sent home straight cos i wasnt in the mood to go anywhere. anyway, theres the Ria's Top 30 songs from 2pm till 6pm. he decided to go watch a movie, since its been some time we postponed it. fetched me after his appointment and off we go to Filmgarde. the movie ended at past one am, and as we passed by Marina, the view was really pretty. Singapore flyer was a sight, the colours keep changing. we had some serious talking, but we left everything to what it should be. only God knows what we're going through.

Australia's a good movie. go catch it if you haven't.

last Sat. he fetched me and i dont know where to go. so he drove to Mount Faber, and the Jewel Box was really a sight. but there were so many people, so many cars. then he brought me to my long-awaited visit to Marina Barrage, and we just turn(stil some distance frm the place itself), and all the cars are already packed der. at one place, it was filled with bikes. so many mats and minahs(oops!).we dont even know where to park, and as we were waitin to reverse, theres this malay fam. the parents were walking infront, and the small kids were at the back. and the youngest(shld be cos shes so small), was walking behind the elder sibling was holding her, and she fell right at the tyre area of where i was sitting. so i was screaming to him not to move, but i couldnt open my door to help cos there were people at that area. he was pissed off, nagging away, asking me to see what kind of parents there are now who are out with their small kids but they walked infront and left the kids at the back, especially at such a crowded place with so many moving vehicles.

we then ended at our usual place. i love that place. =)

supposed to go hosp to visit grandma today, but decided to go tmr instead.

oh well, i wanna do some other things for now.

Happy 2009 people. May your life be filled with happiness, always. insyaAllah. =)

Beary Hugzzz @ |3:08 PM|

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