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Wednesday, August 29, 2007

today.one of the rare-st day.a day when i declined love's offer of going out,even tho its to one of the place i'll like to go,where i can wash my eyes,and shop,and shop,and shop.yes,i declined it,and feel as bad as shit cos i told him we'll go along with the plan at about two in the morning today.but i woke up feeling really lazy,really really lazy.i made a few calls to the resort,all bad news,before i could finally get thru love later on when he finally woke up at my ## calls.i told him i am lazy to go out,somethin which not need be told in the first place.

at four plus in the afternoon,i was stil on the phone with him decidin if i want to meet him or not,lying nicely on the sofa with a book and the teevee. ;)

i dont know why.i hardly turn down an offer of goin out with love,but today it feels so different.maybe if i do go out,something will happen?ohh,the typical taboo thingy is startin to sink into this head.

anyway.i guess i am stil tired from yesterday.my legs are still achin.we went Bugis.twice in a day.and i met someone of the past whom i havent met fr sme time.Suntec.and town.and yes,shopping.big big bags till they became a nuisance in the bus.heh.

seriously speakin,i am afraid of goin out.literally,shoppin.it burns a hole in not only the wallet,but empties nearly the whole bank account.why must there be temptation plus greed?hmmft.

and worst,we could hardly resist food.i am startin to be a bad influence,with my slacking at Coffee Bean attitude.we already had lunch,and a couple of hours later,we sat at Coffee Bean Paragon with our ice blended and pasta.ouh well.addicted.

i was so gatal to eat at KFC fr lunch to try the new Surf & Turf thingy or whatever its called.and its not even worth the money.pathetic.hmmft!

and after Nike,i found a good Coffee Bean to slack at next.Wheelock.

and i got love a huge Timberland bag.travel bag cum sling back cum haversack.ooh.what a good deal from Taka.he loves it so much and takes it as his birthday gift from me tho i didnt say it is.but den,good la.hahah. =)

i met an MI fren in the bus,but we didnt as much as talk,just a hi and a wave.indeed i dont even talk to her everyday tho we're in the same class last time.hmm.

and on Monday.out with Nita and Syida.to like the exact place as yesterday,minus the time spent and walkin.heh.after Bugis,lunched at the usual Millenia Coffee Bean.Belgian choc and pasta.i should hav brought the CB card and collect many many points.heh.

my pasta was this much but i was already so full.but in the end,only the plate and the fork and spoon are left.heheh. ;)

then i went TTSH to visit the paternal grandma,reachin at nearly 8.the parents were already there.at about 9 we went back and i had a talk with the parents at Kopitiam over a big servin of rojak mama.i should hav used love's TTSH staff card and gotten a discount.no Starbucks this time,but it was better. =)

driving in the peak hour tomorrow.i am more than happy to do that.and plans with love.i dont think i want to decline it again for i'm feelin shitty enough now.

and oh,Mimpi Manis is gettin too much on my nerves.and Nita's singin has made it worst cos the songs are like always on my mind,whats with my mp3's on service for a freaking 2 weeks.urgh!

Beary Hugzzz @ |9:15 PM|

Sunday, August 26, 2007

i dont know if i should go Kelantan or not.love said i should just go,we'll made up for loss time when i came back.i think that should,and would,be fine.but i don't know.i just don't.this is super frustratin.

anyway.i havent seen love since Monday.that should be abt a week now.and to top it off,we dont msg,and talk much.its just a lil awkward,as we started with being together in the same class,meet Mondays to Fridays.spending nearly twelve hours together every weekday.heh.and he just msged(and just fin playin soccer at Holland),tellin me his adik angkat,and my only,askin us to go AES on Fri fr teachers' day.its been years. ;)

and daddy's askin me to see the lappys and see if i want to get one.he said i can use it for studyin and do my work.what studies do i have right now?and what work?even when i really have work,i will sidetrack and do other stuffs im not even supposed to.heheh.

ok.time-out with the girls tomorrow.i so feel like just rotting someplace,with good food,drinks and comfy comfy ambience. =)

Beary Hugzzz @ |10:36 PM|

Saturday, August 25, 2007

accompanied mummy to JB yest.gatal immigration man went to tell mummy i was very sweet.dahla tak pergi sembahyg Jumaat,menggatal lagi.hmmph.anyway,there was this girl at Avon outlet.she was really cute,and her talkin,very bijak.shes abt 4 i guess.her mummy is this young woman,and she called another ibu,who i think is her grandma.she went here and there,climbing the chair,sittin under the side table,sittin on the floor infront of the door,kicking her slipper around,wantin to order some Avon stuffs too,and whatever nots.

while her ibu was makin orders,and her mummy's out of the room,she went out and climbed over the ralings outside,half her body in mid air.if that was my daughter,i would have gone stiff seeing it.heh.then after playin outside,she came in and took this big bag and placed it on de sofa beside me.she began takin out the stuffs,whatever they were.then she took a set of panty,should be hers,and bring it around the room.mummy went "dont tell me shes goin to take out her mummy's next".and she did just that.she took this white lacy 100% see-thru panty,and put it up in mid air.i couldnt stand it i laughed like nobody's business with mummy,and she smiled looking at us.then she went "pasal amek orang punyer,"and took off the small black hanger the panty was hanging on,and went,"kasi balik",and stuff it inside the pastic.that girl.

as she was sittin beside me and playin game on her mummy's hp,i touched her oh-so-chubby cheek and asked whats her name.tho i think its like Ashley or smethg since her mummy keeps callin her that.then she started inchin further away from me.don't talk to strangers.yeah right.hahah.

then to TTSH to visit the paternal grandma.finally saw my guy cuz whom i havent met fr yrs.and he rides.and so will my other two cuzs soon.so so many guys are riding nowadays.i asked daddy fr Starbucks and he said i already have a box of donuts.i said its diff.goin down the lift daddy went out at level 1,so mummy and me asked why cause its not the carpark.and he said i wanted Strabucks.so there.woohoo.

but i think i still prefer Coffee Bean to Starbucks.like seriously. ;)

and Subuh.daddy came into my room,sat infront of me on the swivelling chair while im at the end of the bed and asked me to follow along to Kelantan.i shook my head.i was afraid,to hurt daddy by sayin a straight no.then he laughed.touched my forehead.and yes,i said no,i dont want.and daddy went tellin me abt the Acer lappy.i dont want a big heavy lappy.i prefer Vaio.or anything slim,small,light and real pretty.heh.and daddy said HP IT fair comin,or smethg like that.im nt into lappys now daddy.but it wont hurt gettin one.hahah. ;)

my pri sch teacher is stil so remembering me.of course,i remembers him too.one of my best teacher,tho i dont rmb him teachin me much,bt hes one who keep frustratin me by sendin me on competitions without my permission.heh.but thank you for that Cikgu.and i met him at the shop near my place that day.he was practically staring at me,and i quickly walked away and threw love's hand off my hand.hahah.im such a..heh.

anyway mummy went fr the parent thingy at the sch earlier on for the Malay thingy.and he asked abt me,and he,and this president of PPIS or smethg wanted to help me get my degree.i am appreciative,but,i dont know how it'll go.so we'll just see.

now im forced to go Kelantan to cover the paternal grandma's place.God,give me the strengh to turn mummy and daddy down.i wouldnt want to be there on one of my important day.haizz. -_-

Beary Hugzzz @ |8:53 PM|

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

i was looking through winnie the pooh templates and after trying out,i dont think i want to change.i couldnt even remember how long this template has been.but i'll stick with it still,for now.

anyway.it was nice meeting up with an old good friend from sec sch yesterday.seafood at Seri Laut has always been nice,and last night was no exception.and thank God love was there to finish the lots of food up for us.heheh.the meet-up was a sudden one,but thank you sweets for calling me up for a meet-up.it has been years of not meeting. =)

and.my friends are getting engaged.friends who keep asking love and me to invite us to our wedding are getting engaged themselves,even before love and me planned anything.maybe we did plan,but it takes years to carry out.insyaAllah.kita hanya merancang,Tuhan yang menentukan.i did hint at love how good it is that they're gettin engaged,as they only know each other for a much shorter time than us,but he did point out a very relevant fact,the fact that my friends are girls who are with older guys.like,twenty plus?so there. ;)

anyway,i wish my friends all the best.and yes,i am happy for them.

ok.now i feel so guilty for not following the parents to visit my paternal grandma who's sick.
and i am not following the parents for the Kelantan trip at the end of the month till early Sept.i just,dont feel like it.

daddy daddy.always make me feel so bad.urgh!

Beary Hugzzz @ |8:50 PM|

Sunday, August 19, 2007

its been a filling weekend.the parents have been complaining i went out too much,whats more reachin home past midnight for the past few nights.i am tired.but no complaints.cause i love time-out filled with love.heh. =)

Friday.met love at City Hall in the afternoon after Friday prayer and settlin some youth thingy at the mosque.walked around and realized theres just so much to buy.but its not shopping time.i am trying not to spend,for my money is needed for more important stuffs currently.Nissan lovey roadshow at Suntec.and yes,they made me fell in love with the Presage,so big,so comfy.of course,the price comes big too.Lafesta is cute,tho a lil boxy,just like love's Isis.Murano,nice design but the price is really big.and of course,love's favourite,Latio Sport.cute,but i've always preferred MPV.we sat at the driver's seat,tried some stuffs,and how i dislike handbrake being beside the footbrake,using foot to apply the handbrake,how weird.we chatted with their best salesperson,and he was really good.God knows how much i miss driving right now. -_-

i don't think i'll own a car until like,ten years or even more?unless someone is really kind enough to get me one.heh.i just have to get used to Honda SP soon.hah. ;)

dinner,or supper it is,at Coffee Bean with oh-so-delicious Belgian chocolate and pita egg sandwich at Plaza By The Park.

HAPPY 51st ANNIVERSARY LOVE. =)

Saturday.met love late.Lau Pa Sat for lunch,or dinner it is.then for fireworks.

i think Friday's fireworks are better.or is it just my feelings cause i have the best place with the best view on Friday compared to Saturday.another five minutes there amidst the people who are packed like sardines on Saturday and i'll have conked out.but i love it still.cos i have the best companion and the best feelings when the fireworks lit up the sky.and i-love-yous as the fireworks lighten up is something of a must.heh.thank you love. =)

and we had carrot cake after the fireworks.Malay carrot cake and Chinese carrot cake are worlds apart.hmmph.

today.jemputan with the family.i can hardly fit into the kain of my kebaya.ohh gosh.and to think i had four meals today.nasi minyak at the jemputan.the nasi minyak amal.laksa.and nasi lemak just ten minutes ago,where a thick fish bone got stuck on my throat,for a moment i thought i had to be brought to the hospital for a minor op to get it out.it was so painful.thank God i am saved from that.hoh.

serves me right for dreading weekend mornings.daddy has been making noise i havent joined them for the weekend jogs for the past,one month?and while waking me up he will take my legs and exercise them for me,asked for my mp3,made some noise of how lazy i am and how i'll have so much fats,off the light,closed the door,and off he went.oh how i love daddy.heheh. =)

Beary Hugzzz @ |10:38 PM|

Thursday, August 16, 2007

the short beachy getaway proves to be a real good move.

i had a great time.being pampered,treated like a princess.the beach.the white sands.the clear water.the serenity of it all,even when there's people around. =)

i love beaches.beaches,not bitches.heh.

thank you for flying me to the moon,literally.for loving me,and pampering me as such.thank you. ;)

and dates in the park.sitting on the grass.trees.flowers.i loove. =)

fireworks tomorrow and Saturday.if you're performing for dikir love,i would go to CCK for your performance instead.i dont mind sacrificing Saturday's fireworks.hmm.

anyway.

Happy Belated 18th Birthday to my friend Yasmin Idham

and

Happy Belated 26th Birthday to my dear sis.

and oh.ive become a new ambassador of chairs.let me just show you guys a few pics.

Beary Hugzzz @ |9:49 PM|

Saturday, August 11, 2007

i wish i do not have to face the world.

something tells me i shouldnt remember yesterday.

how much longer should i bear the pain inflicted by others?how much longer should i just keep quiet,take it all in,and forced myself to think that nothing is happening,that nothing bad will happen?how much longer will it take for others to realize i do own a heart just like them?

for i am broken.and i am tired of it all.

God,give me the strengh to pull this through.

Beary Hugzzz @ |8:58 PM|

Thursday, August 09, 2007

HAPPY 42nd BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

i dont say this often.but i do,and i really,love Singapore.tell me.which other country you know is better than her?

i remembered last year.how i spent the day at Marina Bay with Nita and Boboy.and this aunt.a stranger,yes.and two years ago,how i spent the eve of National Day with the Millenians.how we hugged each other and sang our lungs out at the NDP karaoke session.and how i started panicking finding a red shirt to wear to sch the night before,and ended up getting one from Hush Puppies which im wearing right now.

and this year,i actually gave three tickets to watch the National Day at Marina Bay with the largest floating platform in the world,a miss.yes,i turned down the offer of three tickets,cause it was a last minute offer,and,most importantly,i wasnt in the mood.i was supposed,supposed,to spend today with someone,but he ended up with duty,so yea.i woke up early,cos daddy had a meeting at home,and im awoken just to make begedil.heh.

i miss this boy truck loads.

okay.im feeling shitty.i want to go sleep so i will think of nothing.i know,fat hope.i hope i'll wake up on time tomorrow for one very important day which will determine alot of things.i need tomorrow to go well,really well.oh.please.

Beary Hugzzz @ |9:13 PM|

Saturday, August 04, 2007

its been a few days.

first of all,i want to say syukur alhamdulillah for my written examination result.it isnt abt the grade that i got,but its the achievement of overcoming those hurdles being dealt to me and yet ending as the winner.after those struggles,i made it.thank you to all those of you who were there for me during that hard time i was facing.especially you whom were there as my listening ear and advisor days before the exam,and believing i could do it.thank you.

to all my friends who made it through,congratulations. =)

and to you,i know you didnt mean to make life hard for me then.afterall,its the time where my future will depend on.but you did,and thank you for that.i fought hard within myself to prove to myself,and to you,that no matter what,i am able to overcome it and make it through.so,thank you.

ok lets start.Friday.after settling my result at BMC AMK,i waited for love and Mai at YCK station.then off to SSDC for love's prac.thanks Mai for the companion.then to NYP,met Zul,filled our stomachs,and then to the Andayu Production.it was the first those three were with me as the audience instead of being on the stage.so is that why my ears were hurting so bad being there beside them?heh. ;)

congrats to all those involved in Bisikan Naluri.it was touchinh.a great production.you guys were really good. =)

Quote of the day:Sorry.i don't drink Tiger.(me)

Saturday.i ended up watchin Hindi movie as plans were cancelled.and there was no daddy.cos daddy's enjoyin himself on a holiday with his colleagues.hmmph.

Sunday.fetched daddy at the airport.never get to see my Aniq.nenek called me up saying hes finding fr me,with his cries in the background.i miss him.yes.anyway,we had Breeks!,since the queue at Swensens was long.this time,i got hotplate salmon.with my all time-fav choc milkshake in Breeks!,and yes,massive attack to top it off.yummy~

Quote of the day:The price doesnt matter.What matters is that we finish the food.(daddy)

Monday.JB with mummy.and then met the girls,Nita and Syida.it seems like its the,fetch-your-sister-day.love went to fetch his sis,while the three of us fetched Syida's sis.heh.then off to town,in 171.passed by AES,and finally i get to see the new uniform.i prefer MY one.heh.i miss AES.memories memories.and,Nita was finding baby clothes for her newborn nephew.its driving me crazy with all those cute lil stuffs(and making love really worried).hah.

after Syida left,we slacked at Coffee Bean.had White Chocolate Dream and egg pita sandwich.convo with Nita,as usual,crazy.then went SMU for urgent-stuff and Watsons before takin the bus home.someone was being extra sweet then.heh.

ohh.HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY Sarah Eleanor. =)

today.someone drove me fuming mad right when i woke up.cancelled the plan i was so looking forward to.and at night,some others did.i felt shitty.maybe till now.after days of reaching home past midnight,i miss it today.i want my day filled,and when i get home,theres no room for thinking,and more thinking.

and all the best for your paper tomorrow love. =)

Beary Hugzzz @ |11:13 PM|

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

Monday

accompanied Nita while she went fr practice.and then,to Geylang with mummy.rendang chicken rice and black pepper chicken rice were yummy~.nowadays whats not nice to me ryte?heh.i was irritated with KFC that night.cos they made me wait so so long before attending to them.and when they finally did,they said they couldnt make any deliveries cause of the overwhelming deliveries.so they asked if i want to come down myself and take.i wouldnt have called if i were to do that.hmmph.

Tuesday

i finally brought lil Aniq out.it was,wonderful.tiring,but really wonderful.he was such a sweetheart.i cant explain the feeling when i see him laughing as we were talking to him.he was just so adorable.and,my heart clenched when he looked at us and cried sofly when the thread frm the pillow twirled his lil finger.i panicked.it must have hurt him.bt he started laughin agn once love get the thread out.and when he looked arnd at the hustle of the surroundin,i could see that amazed and curious look on his face.cute.and the way he fell asleep in my arms.really.i couldnt ask for anything more from him.

supposed to go Sentosa fr a while.bt love frget our islander cards so we ended goin to town,Suntec and Bugis.

there were ppl who looked at us,and at him,with weird looks.and we met love's friends.seriously,i dont give a damn of what they think.and when i shopped for his clothes,nearly all the salesgirls will look at us and smile.and some laughed hearing what love talked to him.hahah. ;)

and to think.my lil Aniq likes Tigger.so perhaps he and his daddy Farhan could be a team.mummy Shiqin will stick to Pooh.heh. =)

anyway.thanks to my cuzs who lent him to me for a day.to my aunt who prepared him and his stuffs for me.and of course,to love who was the one who really takes care of him.makin his milk.and sorry i made a mess of the milk instead in the cab.haha.i wouldnt have been able to cope with the stroller and him and this and that all at the same time.and for the sacrifices you make,your energy and your money,just for our sake.thank you. =)

cabbed from Bugis to Sembawang was over twenty bucks.gosh!

at the end of the day.tired.but smile's a must. =)

reached home past midnight cos we slacked at my aunt's place and played Disney monopoly which we bought for them.its been long.and it was fun.haha. =)

woke up with my whole body aching today.my arms felt like as if its not in working condition.but nthg beats the joy i felt having him out.anyway i get to sleep the whole afternoon.i was tired,and i was fasting.i know sleeping isnt the best thing to do,but im tired and a lil hungry can?hahah.

alright.Friday Friday...

and ohh.HAPPY NURSES DAY love.and to all nurses! =)

Beary Hugzzz @ |10:51 PM|

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