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Sunday, July 29, 2007

Friday
the day didnt start off too well.for what happened late Thursday night.final practice and evaluation.i passed.it was unexpected.cos i was so very tired without sleep the night before,and only we know what we did right at the back of the class.alhamdulillah.atleast it doesnt make me feel worse than i already am.

off to YCK thereafter,where i did something really stupid just because i die die dont want to go NYP.den i headed to AMK,waited fr de guys to finish Friday prayers.we then walked to SSDC,where i waited for love for two hours to finish his prac.Hairi sat with me,but he left an hour later for training.it was weird,how i dint get that bored this time.

love was being a real dear wanting to celebrate the first time he passed bike prac with just one take.and it was thanks to me,for being der on his prac,fr the first-time.like,finally.heh.and co-incidentally,Mai asked me to go over to Northpoint Swensens cos she misses me.so love decided to bring me there for dinner,tho i really didnt want to.we just had Swensens on Monday!but he insisted.and i couldnt do anything.

we never seems to have enuff of this fries.

i so love the black pepper seafood pasta i had.yummy~

because of this,i dirtied my white tudung.hmmph.

the bill came up to seventy bucks.i could go shopping with the money.and indeed,we went for a lil shopping at Northpoint after the dinner.hmmft.nevermind,its over.and someone,thanks ehh for making us go there.and thanks for the service.hahah. ;)

again i have to forgo eating at Mad Jack.nevermind,there'll be another time.

and love,maybe i should come down for all your pracs to give you the all the luck.anyway only a few pracs left to go.of course,no more splurging after that.and pls do try not to make faces when you passed me cos you nearly hit the bike infrnt once when doin that.heh.thanks anyway for the dinner love. =)

Saturday
after so long,i cried watching Hindi movie.heh.

seafood dinner at Seri Laut with the family.courtesy of sis since she just got her first pay.i should NOT complain of any increase in weight!hmmph.

we did again.stuffing the spoon in the garoupa's mouth.hahah.

daddy asked me to finish the head.so i gorged the eyeballs out,finish the flesh,and,there. ;)

Sunday

no family gathering today as every week.had dinner while watchin High School Musical,one of my fav show.daddy wanted to order dinner,but since theres so much food at home,we decided to make it tmr.oh gosh.im having alot of food,well,good food everyday.once again,i shall NOT complain.urrgh!

and to think i've been skipping jogging for two weeks already.with laziness as an excuse,besides the rain last week.and to think,sis and bro seems to be as lazy as me,so that leaves only the parents to go on their own.heheh. ;)

its been very chilly everyday.i dont really know if its a good thing.but i know it amkes me want to sleep more.heh.

and.a HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY to my dear cuz Kak Idah.

sorry i didnt come down to MOS to celebrate your birthday last night.some other time,perhaps.heh.huggs. =)

Beary Hugzzz @ |10:16 PM|

Thursday, July 26, 2007

i went shopping with sis earlier on.

and,i've been eating like nobody's business.

and right now,i'm burning with anger.my face is burning with heat.it really is.

i can be nice.but dont take it for granted.you did stupid things to hurt me.i close one eye,thinking that it'll soon blow over.that you're just a young innocent girl with feelings.i never called you any names,or treat you as an enemy.and to think you called me all that.so much,so much for being nice to you.i am hurt,at what you do to get your worldly possession.indeed,it belongs to someone else.and the fact that you dont give a damn to hurt someone else,a woman with feelings of love just like you,just to fulfil your wants.what goes around comes around.please know that.
and although you love someone(or thats what you claimed),it doesnt mean that the person will love you,even if you kill his love.that will never happen i tell you.
and one more thing you need to learn my dear girl.love is NOT something you can buy with your body.

i shall not let my mood affects my performance tomorrow.ahhhh!!

Beary Hugzzz @ |10:12 PM|

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Monday

final evaluation.den went town with Nita thereafter to eat nasi ayam penyet.like,again.since i just had it wif sis on Sat at Resto Surabaya.this time we had at Ria.i find it much better at Ria,seriously.the service and ambience is much better.and bigger chicken.heh.and we did window shopping there while waitin for Syida.i so wanted to buy that Levi's shirt i saw on Sat.but then,it was no longer there.hmmph.

walked to Bugis from town.and met Syida in Bugis.theres like so much i wanted to buy.but i am not sure if i should.cos my last shopping stuffs are stil in their paper bags.so yah.i decided not to buy anything,yet.and,i saw the exact cap love bought for more than 80 bucks selling at only 15 bucks.hahah.we then walked to Suntec where i left them to meet love at City Hall.

to Style Bridal and to think it was a wasted trip.i couldnt take the CD cos i didnt bring the invoice.and the person working was someone else.ok fine.so we walked arnd for a while and then love had his ayam penyet at Malay Village.fair enough.i had mine and he had his.then we had nthg else to do there.so he said he wanted to go town.i was like,ok.then he changed to Changi Airport.we havent been there fr smetime,so ok.and,atleast it'll save me frm the temptation to shop in town.hah.

so we went Changi Airport.sat at the viewing gallery.and then i decided to treat someone Swensens.for our 50th and to congratulate him for winning third fr his dikir comp.so there. =)

his all-time fav breaded chicken(which i think's kinda pathetic.oops).

to top it,we had Topless 5 with hot fudge.yummy~stuck to the seats with bloated stomachs.heh.

Tuesday

Sentosa getaway.it was,LOVE. ;)

(that reminds me,we have to go renew our Islander cards okay love.)

i dont know why.but i so feel like eatin Mcs.tho someone was not-so-interested.heh.

and today.i felt a lil tired to go along with sis and cuz to Bugis.so i ended up staying home the whole day.and i was sleepin wen love came over.but in a few minutes time,he was the one who was nicely sleepin at the exact same spot i slept on.and worst,it took an irritatin half an hour to get him up for prayers.heh. =)

alright.im feeling sleepy agn.night.

Beary Hugzzz @ |10:38 PM|

Sunday, July 22, 2007

i dont know why i keep thinking its already past midnight when its not even eleven.heh.

stayed home the whole day today.the cuzs all came over.we watched Chermin.and after a week of not seeing this lil boy of mine,i see him today.how he grew!he's so heavy now.but i get to snap his pic while hes nicely sleeping on my lap.

anyways.went shopping with sis at town yesterday.i had Pierre Cardin lingerie-shopping.plus whatever else that we shopped for.thanks sis. =)

alright.gonna read up my book now.final evaluation tomoro.i dont see it going so very well but you never know till you try right?so there.

before i stop.i want to wish my love congratulations on winning third for the dikir competition today.and thanks so much for wanting to give me(or asking me to take care?) of the medal you received.for all the hard work you've put in(and heartpain i received),you deserve it much more than me.i am sorry i wasnt there,cause you wouldnt let me due to the distance of the place and mine.but i still dont think that Singapore is that big.oh wells.congrats once again,love.

Beary Hugzzz @ |10:58 PM|

Saturday, July 21, 2007

its been nearly a week of not blogging.its been a busy week.yes.no pics.just words.

Monday
training.

Tuesday
training.love fetched thereafter.went Vivo fr de movie date.Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix.i cant even rmb when i bought the tickets online.finally watch it.heh.shopped arnd fr a while and i fell in love wif new-coloured crocs.will buy it soon.brunch+dinner into one at BK before leaving.someone has dikir training.so yea.went Sheng Siong wif mummy and sis thereafter.

HAPPY 50th ANNI LOVE! i love you so.

Wednesday
Sentosa getaway cancelled.love came over.supposed to watch DVD bt ended up not.went doc for his wounded leg.cost fifty-nine bucks.i can go shopping with that money.heh.and had my rojak mama crave satisfied.bought sis her Chi rojak.

Thursday
training in the morning.first time rainin while training.and rained so so heavily.instructor was really sweet.heh.met mummy and cuz thereafter to JB.had a crush on this shirt.costing more than 500 bucks.so yah.HAD TO forget it.ended up buying a sixty-five bucks shirt.can lah.

Friday
had lesson in the morning.love supposed to come over after prayers to watch Die Hard 4.0 since i've bought the DVD.last minute he couldnt cos had to attend to smethg.supposed to meet sis bt cancelled too.so i forced myself to slp.and watched tv.heh.

and today.the parents and bro went joggin in the mornin.i didnt wake up.hah.sis asked go town.im like so lazy.bt mayb will go.come online to blog bt ended up chattin.and fr the first time chatted with my MI fren who used to be in the same OG as me back then.we didnt talk much to each other aft dat.and she brought back old memories which i dont even know if i want to forget or rmb.hmm.

i am not feeling that good today.i wish things will get better.
alright.the curry's calling me.toodles~

Beary Hugzzz @ |12:52 PM|

Sunday, July 15, 2007

i finally jogged today.i barely ran 200m and it felt like i've used up all the oxygen in my body.my feet hurts,more like burning.i don't know why.i ran a lil,walked alot,jogged a lil,and then walked alot,and it continues that way.hahah.

went with the parents,sis and Boboy.daddy is the fittest of us all.heh.and after the jog,which doesn't even come to two hours,we sat at the coffeshop eating pratas.and in the evening,i had KFC with sis.great!there's no wonder i don't find even a kg of my weight shed though i feel half-dead.i think i gained weight instead.

but atleast it was a start.heh.

me and sis bought shoes earlier.and i'm still thinking if i should get the Gap kids outer-shirt for myself.hmm.

i hugged lil Aniq till a minute longer and the insides of his stomach will come pouring out.hahah.

anyway,i couldnt wait for Tuesday.and Wednesday.and Friday.i miss someone.who's too busy with meetings,projects,duties,trainings and whatever nots.to think i only met him once this week for dinner.hmmft.

training tomorrow afternoon.atleast it strays the heart from missing.heh. =)

and oh.HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY to my younger brother,Fikri.May God shows you the right way. ;)

im too lazy to post pics.next time,perhaps.

Beary Hugzzz @ |10:25 PM|

Saturday, July 14, 2007

Tuesday

after training,i went all the way to YCK to meet love.and i ended up waiting for him to finish his meeting for some time.took the train to Clementi thereafter with him and one of his friend.then we took 188 and finally ended up at Sakura International Buffet.sis was already there with two of her friends.already eaten.still eating actually.heh.

i don't remember eating so much.but halfway through,my stomach was hurting.when finally i took the ice-cream,i was forcing myself to eat it,and it didn't finish anyway.

sis friends left earlier,and we sat there till the restaurant nearly close for the day.hah.

we laughed at something really funny love said(sang) while walking to the bustop.and my stomach was really hurting with the laughters.and in the bus,i said something stupid,and again we laughed.and sis,for those who know her,and her laughter,everyone seems to be lookin at us when we got off.heheh.

anyway.thank you sis for the treat.i don't think i ate $27 worth of food,seriously.

he ate his spaghetti...

and then stopped.it wasn't nice,he said.

sis left her signature on the cakes.

i look oh-so-fat. like,pregnant?

ice-cream anyone?i could hardly take it by then.

Wednesday

had practice and training.fun with funny instructor.yet a lil stressed out.heh.after which went Marina with Nita and Syida.had a movie to catch at 530,which i'd bought the tickets online in the morning.i had to pay an extra $1 booking fee,but what's that compared to gettin a good seat right?so we watched Die Hard 4.0.it is really a good movie.and i loved it.i fell for someone.who else but Bruce Willis.he is such,a hero.hmm.

after the movie,we just couldnt decide on where to eat.Swensens?Secret Recipe?Breeks?Seoul Garden?at last,we settled for Breeks.we were still sitting there when the waitress came with the bill as they have to close the account for the day.the bill came up to over $60.expected.we ordered food like as if we can finish,but ending up forcing ourselves,and stil never finish.we stil had buffalo chicken to eat,and we ordered ice-cream.haha.and after settling the bill,we were still sitting there.hah.

i had this hotplate cajun chicken chop.

we finally slacked somewhere else besides Coffee Bean.hah.

too much of good food.i am starting to feel guilty.hahah.jogging anyone?

Beary Hugzzz @ |9:11 PM|

Monday, July 09, 2007

i cancelled my practice yesterday mornin bcause i don't feel like going,and,i was kinda late too.of course,there goes the money.but nvm.

uncle fetched me frm hme after fetchin cuzs frm their place and sis frm work,(the rest have went early)and we headed to Jelapang for my uncle's weddin.my uncle who's the same age as sis.heh.he was the last in the fam to get married,so that calls for a bigger wedding.many many invitations and stuffs.

i didn't take photos of the place and stuffs.only the pics above,which i took frm sis's hp.heh.the pelamin was kinda nice.love helped too,rechin there much earlier than me,to wash the plates and stuffs,and he went back with $70 in his pocket.but the money was cut short after his dear gf asked for a cab ride home(since the rest have went home earlier),and a Super Big Gulp frm 7-11.bro and frens took another cab,and i was kinda pissed with the fact we cldnt squeeze 5 ppl in one cab and save the money.i am such a toot.heh.i was like real tired lah ok by then.we stayed to clear everything,and i did help out,a little.the guys wouldnt let me do much work,so i ended up passing small stuffs to them and ending up sitting on one of the platform with daddy at the end of the day,talkin stuffs,before he left with mummy.

and oh.BJ Kadir was called to be the penyambut tamu for the wedding,and he's paid a whopping $350 just for that.we were laughing with his antics.but he's a nice guy,really.

lil Aniq was home when i reached hme,of course with his parents.after takin a shower and eat,we watched Harry Potter on HBO,before cuzs went hme followed by love soon after.it was rainin so heavily and the wind was so nice as i walked outside.heh.

lesson tomoro afternn and then to Sakura International Buffet to redeem our long-awaited treat.hah.

and this guy(read:my dear elder bro),just came into my room and ask me to challenge him in his just-bought Scrabble.hmmph.

-tomorrow tomorrow.i am feeling excited i could do it again.-

Beary Hugzzz @ |8:45 PM|

Saturday, July 07, 2007

i don't know why i am here.whats with the aching of my head.and the fact that i have to get up early for class.maybe its cos of these two dolls who're like kepo-ing arnd me.asking qns and laughin loudly.who?my dear cuzs sufi and elly.heh.

i dropped my hp after i got off the car.and it hurts.like,hurts.my hp is not new,but still,its worth alot to me.gf.i shouldnt have continued msging those two dears all the way from Bt Panjang to Jg West.i dont even remember looking out of the window cause i was busy msging one after another.now its clear where i got the headache from. ;)

anyway.i was forced to go over today.just because i will come late due to lesson tomoro mornin.and i still have to go altho my left eye is swollen,and that makes my whole left face.i feel,cacat.hmmft.so i went Jelapang to my uncle's side first.where two lil girls want me to carry them.so i had to.and one was really heavy,and she slept while i carried her.my hands were shaking after that.nvm.then headed off to Bedok to the girl's side.i was nearly in tears during the nikah.i dont really know what the feeling exactly was.but it seems to trigger my emotions.to top it off,i remembered nenek's words.a part of it goes..biler cucu nenek ni nak kahwin...it seems like a sigh to me.hah.

i love you nenek.don't sigh ok.pray for me instead.heh.

and in the lift,my grandaunt took the daun sirih,which she called it "sirih kahwin",and tap it all over my body chanting "cepat kahwin/nak kahwin"..i was like..whatever.if you don't get it,she hopes i'll get married next,or,like real soon.hmmph.

ten years.thats the number of years i have to wait before someone said he'll marry me.gosh.i'll be andartu laa by then.

anyway.on the way to the girl's side i carried the Emporio Armani watch set frm the guy to the girl.and back to the guy's side,i brought PSP and Braun Buffel wallet and belt and whatever-not set.i wonder how much all the gubahan items cost.hmm.

ok.enough about marriage.don't let the emotional thingy starts.oh.happy 070707 dears.

Beary Hugzzz @ |11:22 PM|

Friday, July 06, 2007

another prob added.

i dont need it.but thank you anyway.

lesson.prata brunch and IMM.it made me feel better today.

i am sorry love for not coming down to SSDC for ur bike prac.one fine day alright?

we need a short getaway.atleast i do.pretty please?

Beary Hugzzz @ |8:26 PM|

Thursday, July 05, 2007

today,i am finally not rushing to go for lesson in the morning.unlike yesterday,where i woke up late and ended up having to rush,but luckily,i reached on time,thanks to the bus.

i hope i wont be late tomorrow.

anyway,went home straight after lesson yesterday.like,the first time.heh.i fell asleep for a while before having to get ready to NYP for sis's convocation.ok,graduation.hmm,i was just sending mummy there,since she isnt too sure of the way.there's only one invitation you see.so i have to sit around while waiting for the event to finish.supposed to meet some friends there,but ended up not meeting so i just sat with love.first in the library,where he was doing his work on the lappy and i was talking,talking and talking cos there's nothing else i could do,or wanna do.heh.then we went to eat at Mcs.before sitting at our usual area and watch Simpsons on the lappy.after mins of sittin,the MCG drama members came arnd to have their meeting or whatsoever around there.of course i dont mind,it isnt my sch to begin with.

anyway,i think some people just don't know what talking softly is.talking about you,thinking that you didnt hear them,but,you heard every single word of it.heh.

thanks love for the company anyway.Sakura has to be postponed again and again all because of you.thanks ehh.

and sis,congrats on your graduation and becoming a staff nurse. =)

ok.i guess i will start missing someone and something.i have been seeing and spending time with him for three days straight,perhaps even more quality time spent with him than love.i am sorry love.there is nothing going on between us.just this,hmm,i don't know how to put it,seriously.but today,when i don't see him and spend time with him,i feel a lil,missing.oops.

i wish it was everyday.why is it so difficult?

Beary Hugzzz @ |6:54 PM|

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

i don't know Sunday was Youth Day and yesterday was school holiday.hah.

someone woke up late yesterday and couldnt fetch me from lesson.so i ended up meeting him at Harbourfront bus interchange instead.nice timing.we reached in time together.heh.finally i had my 2FA done at UOB.and get my craving for carrot cake satisfied.and yes,a packet of PODS,price increased.Transformers.and it was nicer than i thought it'll be.we had perhaps the best seats and the best screening of 2K Digital,with the best companion,you,me and our Transformers combo.the popcorn and the cards got someone addicted.heh. =)

at the end of the day,i forgot my hp,well,we forgot about my hp,and someone was such a dear to come all the way and send it back to me.thank you.

and today.my alarm didn't go off as scheduled.i am currently on off for prayers so i ended up sleeping really soundly,the fact that i was really tired and lacking of sleep.whats mroe with the hormonal changes working inside of me.thank God mummy woke me up.so i quickly got ready and went for lesson.yes,morning lesson.

JB with mummy thereafter.something happened.im glad im all black.two words-too fertile.heh.

i hope i wont wake up late for tomorrow's lesson again.

-my first drive-

Beary Hugzzz @ |8:19 PM|

Sunday, July 01, 2007

i couldnt really remember when was the last i blogged in here.tues?i think so.im pretty lazy to check.heh.

but i guess i did mentioned about the day out with two of my girlfriends on Monday.Nita and Syida.we went town.where i was really holding back on the urge to shop.i did window shopping,no more.i feel i could burst within me with the temptation.seriously.then we went Bugis.then walked to Sungei Road.i dont remember going there before.but perhaps once before.i hope.truth be told,i really don't knwo how to shop there.i walked,aimlessly.everything looks,i don't know.and there's this stupid idiot there.idiot.then we walked to Tekka and eat.before heading to Marina and then Millenia Walk for our usual Coffee Bean(GFs talk).by the time we left tehre it was already late.with its shutters down and the whole shopping centre really quiet.heh.thats what you get when girlfriends meet(gossipped?).oh oh.and yes darl,when driving license is in the hands,you-know-i-know.

Wednesday.had test in the morning.passed.woohoo.congrats to us.made friend with this Bangla.ok,an Indian guy.he was fuuny(read:weird).heh.slacked around the area fr a short while before meeting love and off to JB.

someone shopped and shopped.i am happy for him.but no size fr all the shoes he likes.ok.i'm sorry.hahah.he spent like four hundred plus on his shopping and i didnt shop at all.ok,mistake.i got Secret Recipe,Surf's Up,an educational CD fr bro and my sup kambing and teh tarik.thank you yah.and i am sorry abt the UOB thingy at Jg East alright.but we had a good laugh dont we?

Friday.IKEA-ed and Sheng Siong-ed with mummy.my dear mummy has been asked me to IKEA everyday of the week,and even more than that.and she was happy i was finally free and had some time for her.poor mummy.hah.and i got mutton chop.yummy~

Saturday.someone was being such a dear trying to make up for his busy-ness the past two days.he was out all night for duty and he went home to take the DVDs i wanna borrow from him and left home again just to meet me.went town.and it was supposed to be MY shopping.but he ended up shopping more than me.heh.then i bought daddy his Montagut shirts,and with that,sacrificed my shoes.you know i love you dont you daddy?hah.i ended up with only jeans frm Tangs and a shirt.and,and,i made a fool of myself in Mango.and this morning,i realized the merchant's receipt which im supposed to sign on and passed to the cashier is with me.ohh no.

at the end of the day,noone was more happy than me.i couldnt give a damn to people who was looking at me,and us.and i had a feeling i was being watched.and at that point of time,my hp rang.witheld.hanged up when i answered.good.but i dont care.my heart was singing.and yes love.i love you,till perhaps,one day it'll just burst out,somewhere.heh.

i am sorry for letting 'Ramen Ten' slipped out of my mouth.perhaps Breeks,Swensens or Seoul Garden will make me a happier diner.

pretty sodas for you and me.

yay.i got my ramen.

its been long.where's MY food??

can we eat now?

i tried to swallow this.but i really cant.

black and white.

we were tired.since love didnt sleep de whole night,he dozed off first and i ended up watching Pocong 2 with sis and cuzs at 1 in the mornin.carrying you is a great help lil Aniq.hahah.

i'll see you for your long-awaited Transformers tomorrow alright.i've booked a special screening specially for my love.no shopping.i'll try to keep it that way.heh.

for now.no other words i want to say more than THANK YOUs. <3

now.Mummy Shiqin is going to attend to lil Aniq.another night with him.woohoo. =)

Beary Hugzzz @ |11:17 PM|

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