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Sunday, April 29, 2007

went Dhoby Ghaut BMC for revision for the exams yesterday afternoon.went Wisma fr Nita's stuff first before that,then heading to LJS fr lunch with the grrls.BMC Dhoby Ghaut,being the main BMC,doesnt seem to fit my expectations of it.you know what i mean grrls.heh.

after the revision went PS with Nita and Haimin for a short while before taking the train to Yishun.met ibu and her boys while waiting for the bus.good,atleast i wont be stupidly waiting for people to go thru the gate and hurriedly go in with them cause i dont have the resident card.but in the end,noone seems to go in and out so we have to press for the security to open the gate for us.hmmph.

its my dear Elly birthday party.she turns six on Thursday,26th.while her mummy is supposed to turn 31 on Friday,27th.but she left us much earlier and we missed her alot,as she'll be the ones who'll always celebrate birthdays,whats more hers and her daughter's birthdays fall just one day apart.alright.stop with the emo.

here are some pics from the just-us-birthday party.

the birthday girl and the daddy.she looks real unhappy cos it isnt the cake she'd wanted.

my aunt the cake-cutter with her hubby,who wants to be in the limelight too.hmmph.

she'd wanted a 3-D cake.but her daddy got her this cake instead.

my Randy-boy.

me and my cuzzie happily eatin in the master bedroom,ON the bed.heh.

my princess.she was so excited to be posing for my camera.no more merajuk.she's glowing!

and your truly.(leanin on the washroom door) hehs.

i dislike digital cameras.maybe,only mine?the battery went dead on me after i take two pics.so i'd to rely on my beloved handphone.and its much better.hmm.

love couldnt come cos he went Mersing fr a weekend getaway.but glad his daughter was reminded of him and was excited upon receivin his gift.on her behalf,thank you love!

Aniq Daniel is coming out soon.hurry up my prince.Auntie Shiqin couldnt wait for your appearance.i'll give you two more days to pop out from your mummy.if not,no Levi's baby set for you.hmmph. =)

alright.its time for some revision yet again.i was on it before my sis asked me if i wanted to use the computer.alright.i seriously need to learn to set my priority and focus right!

Beary Hugzzz @ |9:23 PM|

Friday, April 27, 2007

i had this hot-melted-choc donut right after i washed up in the morning.

super yummy!(it was really hot frm de microwave when i took de 1st bite,so stil cn tke pic.heh.)

after dis donut,i had fried macaroni.and then,i had tulang.not as red as usual,but just as oily.bt overall,its still yummy-licious.heheh.

alright.i was really tired yesterday.tho mummy didn't make an early appointment to hav me out with her,i gave her leeway and went JB wif her in the mornin,since i hav plans in the aftrnn.went Larkin and back,but still i was late.i had an appointment at Style Bridal at 2 and i only reached Paya Lebar at 3.but someone was even later than me.hmmft!

made the last touch-up check before the collection next mth.everythg was fine except fr this one photo which i asked her to do touch-up cos i think i saw extreme fats.haha.and i asked Eileen,the manager,fr the free tabletop which she promised me.and i got it.heh.she never fail to praise me,accordin to love,suck up to me.hmmft.and she said after this we cld start payin instalments fr our weddin thingy.oh my gosh.not now Eileen!

while at it,i received a call from this company askin me to come today fr an interview.its at Eunos,so i said if its possible fr me to cme yest itself.so he said sure,no prob.went there,not really sure when i applied fr job at that company.actually,they asked me fr an interview after i did them the survey on tues.so since i was arnd there,i just came down fr de interview.i was shortlisted and was pffered workin wif them.the one who called me up was a business manager,and before i left i had a chat wif another biz manager too in de office,named Farhan.he has good looks,really young,and..shut up shiqin.no worries.love was der too.haha.but i think im turning the job down.im not into sales and marketing,you see.

and i did this thingy which shows how healthy i am.well.my body is in a VERY poor condition.my internal organs such as kidneys and stuffs are really bad cos of insufficient sleep and too much unhealthy food intake.and love did the test too.his condition is not as bad as mine,cos after it all,he received a score acknowledging that he exercise regularly and is very fit.and no.i dont get that result.whatever lah.hmmph.

we were supposed to go Sembawang fr the cake-cuttin of my dear lil cuz aft dat.but we ended up not goin cos it was already late.went town to search her gift.i so wanted to get smethg at Tangs cos of the paper bag,but there was not really much choices there.so i got all 3 gifts,includin daddy's fren son,frm Taka.met Aziera and she went "shopping ke aper ni?".so i said yalah and she laughed.hehs.

and we only leave Taka about half an hour after it closes.and its interestin to be the few ppl in der and havin ppl guide you and bowin thank yous to you before you left.how often do you get this when you go Taka?

then we took 7 hme since it cme faster than 174,and smethg happened inside.there was a fight in the bus.the bus didnt move.nor does it opened its doors to ppl who were shoutin fr de door to open and let them out of the bus.i wont say what happened,cos i dont really know the real story.i made sme acquantance wif sme ppl in the bus.cos we were kinda held back like hostages in the bus fr long,and at some dark place along bukit timah or smethg.very interesting.

i got rid of love at Clem interchange cos i didnt want to make him send me hme and reached hme late since he has sch today.it was already near midnight when i reached home.so i took 99 alone,well,this time i got on the right bus ok.but it was irritating what with the three big Taka sharp paper bags.i felt dumb carryin it and walkin by myself.everytime i saw smeone they'll be lookin at my huge paper bags.hmmft.

i should have just listen to love and take a cab home.hoho.anyway i was already so tired frm all the runnin arnd the whole day.

and sorry nita fr turnin you down once agn dear.

oh love.thanks fr the great day and fr accompanyin me to the interview.and it feels really nice to know your allowance has been increased.ahah.

Beary Hugzzz @ |10:56 PM|

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

i rejected a few invitations to go out today.and perhaps i do regret that move i made.cos smethg else undesirable happened.i ended up being hurt.physically.

forget that.

i've bought advance SPIDERMAN 3 tickets online.and got fr yasmin and her bf too since she wanted to get bt cldnt cos of de credit card payment.im happy enuff i cld help others.and im happier i got the advance tix fr you love,wel,us,and be de kiasu ones watchin it on de first day its out.i just wanted you to be happy,you see.and i hope you wont read my blog anytime soon cos its stil a surprise for you.and if you do read my blog today,pls just act excited and grateful when i tell you tomorrow can?heheh.i got the seats i want.but i cldnt get my hands on de tixs fr Spiderman 3 in 4K Digital view.hmmft.nvm.

well.yesterday.met love at orchard.while waitin fr him ive bcome lyk a guide tellin ppl where to head to their destinations,did survey and spend my money on donation.i am not gg to wait fr u der anymore ok.hmmft!treated him Meltz.finally.heh.den went Wheelock Place to collect my complimentary Nightmare Detective tixs dat i won at de EpiCentre.den he wanted to watch de movie at Vivo.so we headed der.while waitin fr de movie time,searched fr Elly her birthday gift bt ended up buyin nthg.heh.

he didnt wanna watch this movie.but well.i wanted to.and i won it ok.so he was bein flexible.like real.he covered his face like 3/4 of de show.hmmft.its not horror in de first place.just thriller and extreme gore.and its M18 by the way.hehs.

after the movie.had dinner at LJS aft gg Seah Im foodcourt.bt since de sugarcane juice shop was closed,i decided to just hav LJS fr de fish wrap.den went walkin watchin de dark sea when someone decided to go Sentosa.so we went.

walked to Palawan Beach.to the Southernmost Pt and climbed up de tower cos he never done that before.and at de bridge connectin both towers i saw smethg movin infrnt of me and its a rat,for goodness sake.so i ran down de stairs,de bridge,and was so overly-conscious of any creepy crawlies.it was dark,you see.he wanted to walk on de sand down the beach,which i dont really want but well,being the good gf,i did,with my sandals on.and we sat at de log seat and chatted before takin the tram back.

i asked him to tke de straight bus hme cos i woldnt want to waste his time sendin me hme.it'll tke 2 hrs to reach hme while de straight bus will only take 20 mins or so.well.i nearly missed my stop and had to squeezed my way out of 188 at clementi.den.im supposed to tke 99 hme,but this gundu me hailed 52 instead and it brought me to Jg East interchange.took 335,which finally brings me home safely.my head was already in a whirl,and my eyes damn hot cos of expired contacts which i just dont want to throw.washed up,prayed,and went to slp straightaway.hehs.

i got quite a nag frm him.and he went.."you see.im not goin to let you go back urself anymore."oops.sorry love.but thats exactly what im goin to do more often so i'll be independent can?heheh.

ok.nw im goin to go find food.night!

Beary Hugzzz @ |10:55 PM|

Monday, April 23, 2007

i had fish head curry again.super huge.and super nice.but this time.there's no daddy beside and no sharing of huge fish head with him.and no talks about politics.hehs.

i could feel that period of time sneaking up slowly into me.i dread it at times.it makes me go way too emotional and it'll cause 1001 effects and consequences later on.

i think i'll go settle that stuff soon just to while my time away.

i am tired.of quarrels.

Beary Hugzzz @ |10:15 PM|

Sunday, April 22, 2007

i just edited the previous post which i wished love happy anni.i dono why i keep thinkin its our 46th when its our 47th.but one thing,i know nxt mth is de 48th.heh.

and i said i'll tell you guys if chocs make you go wanting sex.heh.it doesn't work on me.so why not you guys try it for yourselves? =)

alright.i went sch on friday.a thorough revision on destination management.it helps.yes.i think i hav smethg with the bus #165.the last time i hav to chased it.this time,it nearly didn't stop cos the driver,a she,cldnt see me hailing.i hate it when im alone takin the bus.luckily it did stop.hmmft.anyway,aft sch went Admiralty wif the grrls.sat at Mcs before headin to Ida's place to tke the car.then Ida sent me to NUH wer i met mummy and grandad fr his check-up.thanks gal. =)

yesterday.went to an uncle's place fr kenduri cukur rambut.his step-grandson.which is my step-nephew.don't start wif de auntie thingy ok.well.after so long i finally carried a baby.whenever i carry him,after a few minutes,he'll fall aslp.i placed him on his bed and he'll wake up.and that happens a few times.heh.my aunt say i expert in carryin baby?really?its been ages since i last did.i didnt want to let him go lah ok.hes so adorable.only a mth old.he doesnt like to smile tho.hmmft.

say hello to Md Randy Fahrizi.or smethg like that lah ok the name.heheh.

and my aunt was teasing if he's my son.cos we're both in yellow.i wish!hahah.

i merengek to love in the middle of midnight that i wanted a baby right now.he keep telling me to be patient.and it takes time to make and have one,he said.very funny!

and love fell sick since friday.what a good weekend for him.hah.im bored.cos we didnt get to out.but not going out means not spendin money and thats good isnt it?and im still wondering how guys cld sleep all the way,even the whole day,and not waking up.hmmft!

alright.here's smethg i got from a friend.i'm bored.so here it goes.

A perfect boyfriend would (bold if done):

• give her one of your t-shirts to sleep in

• leave her cute text notes

• kiss her in front of your friends

• tell her she looks beautiful

• look into her eyes when you talk to her

• let her mess with your hair (half-smetymes he doesnt.vain. )

• touch her hair

• just walk around with her

• forgive her for her mistakes

• look at her like she's the only girl you see (cos at that moment theres no other girls, you see.)

• tickle her even when she says stop

• hold her hand when you're around your friends

• when she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her (i don't swear at him.so yea.)

• let her fall asleep in your arms

• get her mad, then kiss her

• tease her and let her tease you back

• stay up all night with her when she's sick (on the fone,can?)

• watch her favorite movie with her

• kiss her forehead

• give her the world (half-cos i have yet to receive THE WORLD.fr now.yes im spoilt rotten!)

• write her letters

• let her wear your clothes

• when she's sad, hang out with her

• let her know she's important

• let her take all the photos she wants of you

• kiss her in the pouring rain-and don't mind falling sick (together with me)

• when you fall in love with her, tell her

• and when you tell her, love her like you've never loved someone before

so yah.doing this brings back lots of memories.heheh.now love,do hurry and get well ok?then i'll treat you to the new Cheesy BBQ Meltz which you've been wanting.now who says im a bad gf?

Beary Hugzzz @ |11:15 PM|

Thursday, April 19, 2007

so my exam thingy is ready fr collection.i dont think i can mke it tmr.so most prolly i'll tke it nxt wk.i have yet to make any reasonable move,the fact that my exam is around the corner.

JB wif mummy on Tues.mummy panicked twice.when she saw the traffic police,where she quickly turned back,and when the officer stopped us at the immigration.my pink bag got checked with all the contents taken out.and the best part is,its my chocolate bag!yes.that pink-striped quite-big bag was filled with chocolates.cadbury and beryl's.so the officer asked me,"all chocolate ah inside?".i smiled proudly and said,"yes!".what more can i say?heh.

and oh.HAPPY 47th love.we just had to quarrel 5 minutes before the clock strikes 12 midnight that day.wonderful.

yesterday.he came over after his show.sometimes i feel bad turning down his asks for me to watch his shows or attendin his comps.i'll try to make it more often next time ok love?so he came and slacked arnd.just want to spend time to make up fr nt meetin yesterday.together wif my sis too.the nurses keep talkin abt nurses stuffs,so i just listen la.hmmph.

and ive eaten my soto ayam.till hingus all meleleh la ehh.hahah.together wif mi soto and macaroni soto also.hehe.power...!

ok.i have no mood.i want time to myself in a peaceful place.perhaps fr now i'll go gobble the chocolates.

chocolates are connected with sex.so you eat chocolates and you want sex?alright.i'll try it and tell you people later ok.heheh.

shut up shiqin.

time-out.

Beary Hugzzz @ |8:52 PM|

Monday, April 16, 2007

sch earlier today.yes.after so long.and fr de first time i chased after the bus.well,it already closed its door and moved further up front when i stopped it by gg to the door hailing.and luckily there were two more person wantin to board the bus bhind.shiqin never chases after a bus in her life.not when she's alone.and she did it today.and when she board the bus and sit somewhere at the back,her butt just touching the seat,she wanted to press the bell.just what is wrong with her?with ME?

and i don't even realize my exam is soo near.its like in 3 wks time.and i am still thinkin i wont be sitting fr the exam in another couple of mths.i am still in my own world.but even after being hit by that fact,its not makin much difference.i am enjoying life planning for this and that,especially my dates with loveS.heh.no books included.no studying included.pure enjoyment.this is terrible.

alright.i will TRY my hardest to find time.after exam,and after making a great deal of effort to finish up my assignments,i will have all the time to enjoy right?and nobody's gonna stop me.but i have to find a job.nvm.later we'll think and talk abt it.

this is what happens when you're rottenly spoilt.no matter by who,when and where.hehs.

went Bugis wif the grrls after trying to find de super soto ayam shop all arnd AMK area in vain.don't have lah ok.dahla i go sch fr de wrong reason(read:to eat soto ayam),atlast cant find the shop.tulah.serve me right.so we went Bugis,after i met love fr a short while to pass his timetable,and we went to eat murtabak at Victory.im a Zam-Zam customer,but i have no complain against Victory.indeed,the place is better-maintained.oops.then we walked arnd Bugis b4 gg hme.i feel like shopping fr smethg,but i really dono what.i guess its better this way.

uncle cme into my rm and gav me sme money earlier.he said just to spend.thank you!atleast hav mor allowance this wk.woohoo.

sis called me sicko earlier after smethg happened.and we laughed and pushed each other like crazy before Isya' while waitin fr daddy to azan,in our telekungs and on the sejadah.and we continued laughin after we finished praying.we need to grow up.especially you my dear sis!

and i keep eatin.the parents have been buying lots of chocs.and i couldnt resist them all.i was holdin(or grabbing) a bottle of Beryl's chocs,and when daddy wanted a piece,he went "so fast ah finishing?".it wasn't me.really.

one hour more to our 47th.and i keep thinkin its our 46th.im getting old.i just couldnt wait fr one month more.

night loveS. =)

Beary Hugzzz @ |11:00 PM|

Saturday, April 14, 2007

Wednesday.
Sentosa with love.supposed to be DIY day.but it was done on Tuesday.so yes.finally we get to spend some time together.collected our new Islander card at Vivo and proceeded to Palawan Beach.its been some time since we spent time there.for a Wednesday,I could say there's alot of ppl.hmm.love went soaking in the seawater.while i was soaking in the heat of the sun.so i sang the sang for it to rain.heh.my prayer was answered.the downpour was nice.atleast for that moment.hehs.
then we watched Songs Of the Sea.it was nice.and to us,it was worth the money.there's really alot alot of ppl,mostly tourists.i wonder how packed it will be on a weekend.since it just finished rainin,there were some flying bugs,mostly around the lights at the back.and we were sittin at the back.so it was kind of disturbing.really.
after SOS,dinner at Koufu.generous serving.and it was nice.worth the money too.
then we took the Skyride and Luge.met Haimin on the way.so chatted for a while.been long since we last met.night-time Skyride was nice.it was a change.the surrounding dark instead of being on top there with the sun glaring at us.the night breeze was of course what made it really nice.and i took luge for the first time cos love was pestering me to,since i skipped the last luge ride at the last visit.heh.and it was fun lah ok!heheh.

Thursday
was supposed to meet the girls at Admiralty before heading to STB.but woke up with bloodshot eyes.due to the contacts,i'm very sure.and it didn't go away until noon.so i cancelled the plan.i had already planned and it was frustratin.was suppoesd to visit cuz at SGH and that has to be cancelled too.since love was wif no plans,he came over my place.so got him to move my bed in another direction.with that,he cleaned up the whole area.from fixin,vacuumin,wipin,sweepin,moppin and shiftin.he did it all.and wouldnt let me do the work.i was even sittin on the bed while he moved it.heheh.fun fun.my fam just shake their head seein how pampered i was.and i was amazed at how hardworkin love cld be.i watched wif fascination how he did all the work,and i got him to teach me how to mop.nearly 19 yrs of my life and i'd never mop before.bravo shiqin!and mummy gav love a green packet at the end of the day.which he declined even when i forced him to take.too bad then.heh.thank you love for all the help. =)

and finally after 3 days today.the technician came to fix my phone line and internet line which had been givin problems.hmmft!

alright.gonna watch Matahati now.night!

Beary Hugzzz @ |9:37 PM|

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

ive got a new workstation and it just go oh-so-well with my bedroom set.only that it takes up a lot of space and my power-fan has to be moved to the other side of the room where i usually charge my hp.and the comp's swivel chair seems to be gasping fr breath(or is it the user?) cos of the limited space its given.hmmft.

and ive got a pretty lime-coloured table-lamp(as chosen by daddy) to go along with it. =)

thank you love for all the fixing.truth be told,i love to see you working that hard for me.im a sucker for hardworking guys who work hard for their love but i hate it when i'm ignored in the process.heheh.its hard to please a woman right?or maybe just me? *sighs*

tomorrow.tomorrow.tomorrow.let me sit by the beach in the day and let me play amongst the stars at night ok love?

Beary Hugzzz @ |11:13 PM|

Monday, April 09, 2007

things have gotten slightly better.but still not as good as i want it to be.but still,alhamdulillah fr de improvement.

IKEA wif the parents yesterday.and it was good to be able to grab anythg and put them into the trolley.but not as if i got so much stuffs to take anyway.i've always wanted the sheepskin rug.i'll get it one day.and smethg which the parents bot was left behind.i remembered mummy put it down outside IKEA while waitin fr daddy to mke de Friends! card.and bro to buy BK.it wasnt on the trolley,cos it kept fallin.and then,we left fr the carpark and the thing was left behind.and mummy only realized it when we were home.so,forget it.

i got my workstation.and im gonna get love to fix it fr me tmr.heh.

didnt meet love as planned today.we made some changes.and i will not give it up fr anythg cos we seriously need the time together.

my cuz has already been sent to the hosp earlier today.labour ward.so im patiently waiting fr my dear nephew to push himself out so i can have him in my arms.sorry my dear cuz.but my first nephew is really getting all the attention frm me and not you!heh.

now.i need to find the right religious class to go to.and get all the religious facts right once again.it seems ages since ive last been to religious class.i miss studying religious facts.and taking religious exams.heheh.(now miss.when the time comes,it'll all feel shitty yet again!)

Beary Hugzzz @ |10:26 PM|

Sunday, April 08, 2007

Batam yesterday was ok.tho i only went with mummy,uncle and aunt.

mummy made more curtains.hmm.and we went to this shop with antiques.well,furniture.and we all fell in love with this bedroom set.a four-pole king-size bed decorated really beautifully,a four-door wardrobe and a dressing table.all in kayu jati.and it costs about $5000 a set,excluding delivery charge to Singapore.they asked me to get it fr my wedding.wedding?i don't see the day coming.i don even wish to think abt it,for now.

i bought more long-sleeved shirts from Polo.wanted to get from Polo Ralph Lauren but the long-sleeves are not as nice as the ones at Polo.so bought two frm Polo.one purple and one pink.yes,another pink.the last one was pink too.the one brother got me was blue.but the sleeve was 3/4.i do like Polo shirts,altho ppl wont even know its Polo cos i wear tudung.but i dont wear it to show ppl the brand.just for self-comfort.whatever clothes i wear will all look the same anyway to others.heh.and i bought one long-sleeve frm PointOne,wif a pretty design at the bottom.and the three clothes cost mummy quite a huge amount.it certainly is good to be spoilt lil girl.well,woman actually.heheh.

i wanted to buy Wacoal for someone.pretty in black.with diamonds at that.but there's no size.hmmft!

and we ate A&W before we left fr the ferry terminal.its been ages since i ate there. :)

im really not in a mood right now.i feel like sleeping and not waking up till i know things are back on the right track.

i'll see you tomorrow,love.

good night.

Beary Hugzzz @ |9:28 PM|

Friday, April 06, 2007

ive been on two minds since earlier today.whether i want to blog or not.a couple of hours ago,i decied not to.but here i am.i am fickle-minded.yes.

things hasn't been smooth-sailing.its not that point of time where i feel at the top of the world.it sucks having this feeling sinking into you.

if fairytales do exist,i want to live in it.to be the princess.and to live happily ever after.its just a dream.fairytales do not exist.not as far as i know.happy-endings do exist.but it doesnt come easy.no,it doesnt.not at all.

alright.mummy has been askin me to get my stuffs ready.gg Batam tmr.i am tired.emotionally,mentally and phychologically.

i guess i need another holiday in june.i told daddy and he said he'll see how it goes.but he'd planned a short trip in May in the meeting he had earlier.but it isnt enough.could we go somewhere beachy in June daddy?i need that beachy getaway.hehs.

i miss Bintan.and i miss us.

Beary Hugzzz @ |10:38 PM|

Thursday, April 05, 2007

went JB with mummy.got 4 DVDs.best of all.i got my 300.now i can watch it again and again until i get really bored of it.more like,until the CD went bonkers and decided not to play anymore.heh.

since i was late.the trip to STB to meet the girls was cancelled.i join you guys next week,insyaallah.

i cancelled tmr's trip to Yishun fr a mini birthday celebration too.i think its best we spent some time with our family tmr love.daddy'll be havin his organisation's meetin at my place tmr,as usual.discussion fr the mini trip.so perhaps you could join us again this year love?

we havent been spendin much time together.we don't meet up too often recently.calling and msging included.Sentosa love.we'll spend time together,only the two of us.soon ok.Sentosa never fails to make us better.if only we cld spend two days there together like the last time.nevermind,we'll still go star-gazing and sing twinkle-twinkle-little-stars ok.thats my all-time fav kiddy song.laugh if you want to.heh.

people are breaking up.love is no longer smelling of sweet roses.its no longer lingering in the air.its heartbreaking to see how a used-to perfect love goes all so wrong.and its saddening to see ppl breakin up after a long time together.but we have no right to say anythg since its in God's will.kalau jodoh,tak ke mana.of course,the greatest thing is to love and be loved.but nobody said it is easy.four years in a relationship and yes,i could say that love is never an easy period.but nothing could be compared to the hapiness you'll feel when in love.

i should get lost.i know.bye!

Beary Hugzzz @ |11:11 PM|

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

i found out alot of things just now.some of which is better not to be known.ignorant is bliss.i've always believe that.everything's over.we got to move on.the past has become history.

i met my partner,Umeeta,after over a year of not meeting each other.treated her Pizza Hut since i'd given her Adidas watch birthday gift to someone else after keeping it for so long.heh.now,we should meet up more often and do our cathing up alright dear?since MI is so near my hse now.she asked me if i regretted leaving MI.i said i do,without hesitating.of course.i quitted for the stupidest reason,only known to me and love.i was doing well,friends and teachers were always there and hoping i won't leave.but its of no use regretting now.i've made many other friends.and getting a diploma.only that i could not get into the local universities since i'm a private student.i made the decision,so i'll bear with the consequences myself.

she told me alot of things that are happening in sch.and yes.they are all doing well.tho some students have been dismissed due to their poor performances.year 3.i was looking forward to be in that level.but i never get to.new school.huge huge building.my friends passed hello to me.and so did my home tutor.he was a really good teacher.

yes.i do miss MI.even wearing the uniform.and everything that has ever happened till the end of my year 1.some friends i will never forget.incidences.for him.i am glad his hard work paid off.and was amongst the top 10 students.and having a gf who cares for him.but we've yet to face each other.let things be the way they are.i think its for the best.

and i heard abt her.maybe she's given up on guys.relationships with pure normal guys.so she got into a relationship with a girl instead.hmm.i found out how she talked and blogged about me.of course,NOT any good words used.it seems like its my fault,after she'd betrayed and backstabbed me.she's the person who'd done the worst to me.forgiven.but never forgotten.

so now,i am taking my diploma and not A's afterall.the stress of being in MI could not even be compared to the stress(if there's any),in my current school.it's funny.it's funny how i miss that stress i used to have back then when i was in MI.

i have to stop this pangs of memory from drowning me altogether.

and partner.we didn't even take a photo together just now.hmmft!

Beary Hugzzz @ |10:24 PM|

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

i felt so bored.decided to come here and blog.i type and type,only to press backspace over and over again.

i don't know where to start.or what i should blog about.

i just saw this baby girl.i feel like having one too.i've been going window-shopping for baby stuffs alot recently.i felt like getting those babyGap's jumpsuits.babyLevi's set.babyGuess's set.i've been eyeing them,seriously.and oh ya.OshKoshBGosh(is that how its spelled?) stuffs too.how can i not even remember how its spelled when i certainly grew up with that brand on me all the time till i broke down saying no to it when i was in primary school.i guess primary 3,if i am not mistaken.

love has an idea of how it's going to be when i hav a child later on.well,when i am pregnant,so to speak.i did mention it may not be his,since i may not be marrying him.he was just given a rough idea on how it'll be when i really do have a child later on,seeing the way i am eyeing things right now.he's already pressurized knowing what i want,and where i'll shop at.

when the mummy and daddy wears Gap.baby will wear babyGap.when the parents wear Levi's.baby will wear babyLevi's.when the parents wear Guess.baby will wear babyGuess.and many more brands that i'd rather not mention.

i am sorry love.i know how pressurized you are.i am too,really.wondering if you'll leave me when it gets too much.heh.

now i should throw all the fantasies aside.because i won't be married yet(long way to go).and that includes getting pregnant and becoming a mummy.sigh.heheh.

but it won't stop us from going window-shopping for baby stuffs right love?i have yet to get my first-ever nephew something fitting for a handsome prince though he's still busy kicking inside his mummy's stomach.

i can't wait to have him in my arms.but i can certainly wait having to be called Auntie.hmmft!

Beary Hugzzz @ |9:01 PM|

Monday, April 02, 2007

my head was filled with blood,thumping really hard,my body warmer than norm,and my whole body system seems to shut down.but it was worth the pain.the feeling i never wanted to feel.

today went better than i thought it would.it doesnt start too nicely,but it was worth it,really.

talked to love at two a.m. in the morning earlier today.he just cme back frm JB wif de fam.and he fell aslp on me at slightly past two a.m.without off-ing his hp.and guess what?his crazy gf stayed awake all night just to listen to the other side of the line.of his breathing.and the wind/air sounds.and it was only at 6.30 in the morning that the line got disconnected and she went to slp.

she was crazy.and even he said that.heheh.

met Nita and went to STB.Ida and Sarah wer aready der as they went straight aft sch and de fact that ida drives.me and nita were too lazy to go sch.i wasnt in the mood actually.we did our research and stuffs.and suddenly.the fire alarm rang.once.twice.and we had to evacuate.so we went Tanglin Mall,leaving the car behind.our dear friend was so worried her car will be burnt.heh.we slacked at Starbucks,and i had caramel frap,before love came and fetched me as the rest went to Tanglin for the car and to Suntec for their respective plans.

walked to BG wif love and we sat at the EcoGarden eating roti kirai wif curry chicken.heh.my grandma brought it for him.and we just sat and slacked before going home since he has to go to the mosque fr sme selawat thingy wif his friends.i think love is getting more religious than me.hehs.

Sentosa tmr bt i think i'll postpone it to Thurs.cant wait to meet partner on Wed aft so long.whee~

and the meeting yesterday went better than expected.alhamdulillah.it was fun preparing everythg with the rest of the fam members tho i was constantly on my feet.

for now.i am still annoyed cause i've yet to finish researching at STB's lib.

now love.you have two weeks to accompany me go places right?i'll treat you one luge and skyride ok?pretty please?

Beary Hugzzz @ |10:27 PM|

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