Name : ShiQiN
Nick : miraClesept
Age : 20
D.O.B : 020988
horoscope : VirgO
Zodiac: dragOn
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School: insyaAllah i'll go back to sch when the time is right

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Tuesday, February 27, 2007

and after all de persuasion.love touches the shark. ;) looming above usin the cable carsunset

Beary Hugzzz @ |8:45 PM|

Thursday, February 22, 2007

anger management.

i am really tired of having stupid quarrels and gettin angry with love.really.i'll be fine in one moment and at another,i'll just flare up like nobody's business.

thanks to PMS.or just some unwanted raging of hormones inside of me.

and im tired of trying to find the best deal to Bangkok.or perhaps,Phuket would be fine too.and seriously,i feel like makin a complain of some ppl who don't know how to answer and talk to potential customers in a good way when that's their job.its my right to ask questions and you answer it.and i don't stand f***ing rudeness when i talk so nicely to you.bitch.wth.

ok.forget it.

anyway.i finally went sch yesterday.we didnt really learn much.only four of us in class.during break,chatted with lawrence while the rest got lunch.and he asked me what i really want to do in life.he was confident i cld go STB,but not until i get my degree from some WOW universities and not Sunderland.hmmft.NTU will be good.but that'll mean i have to continue with my A Level.it'll be a waste of time.and i feel,stupid.i dropped A Level halfway,only to retake it back after two years?and whats more.i wouldnt want to waste the money of taking private As.i don't know.we'll leave it here for now.

love fetched me frm sch.took bus with Nita and Sarah.went AH to accompany him fr his appointment.then to IKEA.pretty ideas.then to Queensway SC to get our matching Nike apparels.after walking round and round,love decided on this black Nike jersey for him.so we went in search for my black sleeveless over my plain black long-sleeve.found Nike pants for 80 bucks.but no pretty black Nike sleeveless found.so we made a trip to town.went Tangs.stil no sign of it.then to Nike Wheelock Place.love fell for this sixty bucks long sleeve Nike shirt.a ladies,that is.so he insisted on me trying,and then bought it for me.it looks just like any other black long sleeve,with a pretty pattern behind,which cldnt even be seen aft i wore tudung,and on the left sleeve.hmmph.

i could pretty well use the money for some other shopping love.hehs.anyway,thanks alot for it.

Beary Hugzzz @ |3:15 PM|

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

ibu,cik li,mummy and nenek.

and this.i was bored from waiting for the rest to get ready to go kubur and to the new neighbour's hse yesterday.so this.hehs.

and oh.i totally forget to wish my dear Chinese friends a HAPPY LUNAR YEAR!

Beary Hugzzz @ |8:44 PM|

Saturday, February 17, 2007

part of the donuts i got.yummy!

and yes.i had satay.after days of wanting to eat it.yumms. =)


watched Kuntilanak earlier today.it doesn't seems as great as i wanted it to be.but well,its ok.

to AH with the family earlier.to visit a relative.i hate it when i know people are sick.cause there'll be constant fear in me.of losing,yet another.and to know the pain and suffering they have to go thru.haizz.

and sorry love my fam and i couldn't make it to the airport to send your parents off.my mum got this last minute meeting which eventually she cancelled to go to the hosp.but i wish i could be there at the airport,really.to see you cry,that is.heheh.but i really hope your parents will come back safely.

assignments hav not been progressing that smoothly.but there's stil progress.cause i've started on my BET assignment.heh.tomoro.a day out with the big fam at ECP.once again..can i not go mummy??

she said she'll give me a slap on my face.or perhaps,multiple,if i don't go.hmmft! >_<

anyway.

HAPPY 45mths LOVE.i love you.huggs and kisses. <3>

Beary Hugzzz @ |10:32 PM|

Thursday, February 15, 2007

ive been receivin calls frm MDIS.but i think i'll giv it a miss and go earn some money first.and SENTOSA.they called to make sure my needs and satisfactions are met while im der.thanks ehh.i feel such a VVIP.hehs.

yesterday was Valentines.i am sorry if the blog i posted a couple of days ago hurt some ppl when i was talkin abt celebratin Valentines.no offence.im just disgusted seeing how SOME ppl are behaving on this day.JUST on this day.personal feelings.seriously no offence to anyone.

i remembered 14th Feb 2006.i went MI to meet the dears.and pass Manov's her bday gift.then we went CWP.Umeeta wanted to hav Siam Kitchen.but then.somethin happened.so she went Siam Kitchen wif Manov while me and love to Swensens.and that means.its been a whole year since i met the Millennian darlings.hmmph.

the plan was to just slack at home.perhaps lie on the sofa watchin tv,or lyin on the bed wif de tv on and the lappy infrnt viewin the assignments yet nthg's done.heh.but as i was sittin wif mummy and grandma at nearly one.someone was at the door.yes.love. =)

mummy teased him if he came wif flowers.sorry mummy.we DONT celebrate.and to me. flowers are meant fr other days NOT valentine.we sat together on the couch.watchin MTV while the food was bein prepared.yalah.i was so hungry la ok.and the soto was really temptin.so many nice songs.and then.our song came on.I DON'T WANT TO MISS A THING.and yes.perhaps.that was one of the sweetest thing yesterday.just right on time.

and we ate.and ate.and ate.i felt pregnant.so does love.hehs.

to pasar malam at night and mummy got him his burger john.happy now love you got to taste it?

ok ok.i'll better start on my proj.my la-long and love are already nagging at me.hmmft!

and Manov dear.HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY yesterday!!

Beary Hugzzz @ |2:27 PM|

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

chatting with partner.i suddenly.miss being in MI.the memories.short time.yet the memories are just..well..i dont even know how to put it.

i miss being in MI.seriously.and i know love.my reason to quit was lame.i couldnt fine a more stupid excuse than that.

i miss the times in MI.the friends.urrgh!

i cant seem to find the rest of the photos.guess its in my other wallet.

05A4 Milennians.all the best for your A Level this year alright.miss you guys.

Beary Hugzzz @ |10:51 PM|

was looking at some old photos.i miss the intimate photo-takings with the brothers.how we hugged and held hands.now.jangan harap lah ehh.

so i returned him with this.and he put it as his hp wallpaper and went around showing his friends his daughter.and to think they believed him and tell him off for not telling them he has a daughter.oh my!

so now we know if we are really meant to be together.ada jodoh.get married.and have kids.insyaallah.we know how our baby boy and baby girl looks like.heh. =)

went Sentosa on Sunday.to made up for the cancelled trip on Sat.since ive promised love fr the getaway on Sunday,i have to turned down the other two important people in my life.mummy and daddy.i'll go IKEA shopping and Hejab Iran shopping with you guys some other time alright..?

i got love to try New York Pizza.and the aunt who served me that day was actually his aunt.riah's mum!what a small world.

then we went walking under the scorching hot sun.booked de chalet on de 25th.and even walked in the dragon trail.exercise.heh.then rented bicycle.the double one of course.hehe.my butt was seriously hurting.fifty minutes and i was asking love to stop somewhere for me to rest my sore butt.got off the bicycle.wanted to sit on the steps.and then.and then.i fell!good lah.my butt da la hurting.and then i fell.and that made my palms hurt too.hmmft.apelah nasib. :(

Tg Beach late in the afternn.a malay couple was lyin on top of each other.i told love i felt so guilty for bein der.heh.den a chinese couple came and tied a hammock at the trees near our area.then they disappeared in de hammock.and you really couldnt see them except fr de guy's legs over de girl i supposed.and at that point of time.nthg could be heard from them.heh.ok.whatever.

i sat on the mat with love.massaged his leg cos thats what the physiotherapists asked me to do.made sure he did his exercises.and being in Sentosa is NOT an excuse.heh.he called me his doctor.Dr tak menjadi.tapi tkpela.and we had spaghetti.again.yes.and when night falls.we star-gazed.and went singing twinkle twinkle little stars.my favourite kiddy song.hehe.

short getaways can be real nice.right love?hehs. =)

and we met Haimin on the way home.it feels so long since ive last since you gurl.good that you're fine. :)

anyway.sent nenek to AH fr an appointment in the morning.then went to the wet market la ehh.dah lame tk gi pasar.get to know this auntie adn she was asking abt me.complimenting im pretty.thanks ehh.and went on talkin abt her children.ok auntie.thank you fr all the information. >_<

tomoro is V-Day.i do not plan to go out at all.cos i have a sudden feelin of disgust when i think of all the people with flowers and how people are behaving just to show how intimate they are on Valentines.seriously.its funny.excessive love only on Valentines?hmm.such a waste to be in such love.

ok.i'll shut up.and oh daddy.pls get well soon.i dont like you looking and feeling so sick.huggs.

and mummy.you volunteered to stop working.and now your course has ended.but seriously.i stil don't see much of you.when are we going shopping then?heheh.

anyway love.all the best for your papers.just don't remember me.cos that's when you'll forget everything else.muahahah.

huggs and kisses everyone.enough?

Beary Hugzzz @ |9:52 PM|

Saturday, February 10, 2007

the new blogger google account can get really annoying.hmmft!

anyway.went sch yesterday since ive promised lawrence i'll come for the assignments samples.anyway.love and i hav promised to go sch together since his class will start at 11.Gwen cme.and got me another bar of Willy Wonka.thanks darling.

three-hundred-and-eighty bucks paid for exam fees.hmmft.

after sch.met Mai at AMK stn.she wanted to so much to take a breather and return me the pink umbrella.so well.i told love i'll meet him after sch at 5 and we'll go back together after i spent sme time wif Mai.we sat at Mc Cafe.chattin and looking at movies thingy from her lappy.love msged to cme NYP earlier cos he has a feeling he'll end early.Mai accompanied me to NYP before gg home.thanks dear.

sat wif Hairi and love at de usual place before accompanyin love for his physiotheraphy.it was nice to be there and the physiotherapists were telling me what i should do for him and to make sure he does his exercises.and showed me how to massage him.hmmft.so now i have to massage him.ouh well.it doesnt matter as long as his knee gets better.and the guy actually closed the curtain with me inside when love wanted to take out his pants and change to the super-short shorts.so i quickly went out and told him i don't want to stay inside.and he laughed.hehs.

bought love McD since he was so hungry.and bought fries fr his frens who wer waitin for him.met up wif them at the front gate before we walked together to tke the MRT.got down at Jg East and i told love he doesnt hav to send me hme.so we parted ways at de control stn.and when i was walkin to the interchange,he grabbed my hand and told me not to walk so fast.
me:why are you here?
him:i just want to send you home sayang.
me:i don't want you to send me home!(loudly)
him:i just want to make sure you'll reach home safely sayang.that's all.
me:i don't want you to send me home!if you do,you'll regret it!

i was seriously crazy.and i ended up walking to chinese garden after makin sure he has board his bus.i'd wanted to walk home.but i don't wanna miss Maghrib.and my feet were hurting.i replied his msg-es cruelly before ignoring his calls and msges soon after.

daddy asked if i wanna go dinner when i reached hme.well.anything.tho i wanted to so much to lie on my bed and fall aslp.i dont know why.but i was really cruel to love.so i went dinner wif de parents and boboy.i love time-out with the family.daddy asked me abt love.and we talked abt me becoming an air-stewardess.amazingly.they don't really mind.but daddy was telling me the long hours and the fatiqueness.and since i hav a dip in T&T,mke use of it.and mummy talks abt de courses shes been to.well.good for you mummy.

and that love of mine.he actually walked home frm Clem and only reached home when i came home from dinner at nearly 11.i felt bad la ok.it takes him 3 to 4 hrs walking slowly home.whats more with his injured knee.

ok.i've been a real bitch these few days.seriously.

and today.i am supposed to go Sentosa with him.but i didn't want to wake him up.and he ended up wakin late.and wen he did wake up.he said we'll still go.but i was agn screamin at him saying i am not gg anywhere.i hurled him stuffs i nvr meant.all out of this stupid anger.and hes still nicely calming me down.seriously,i don't know whats this feelings inside of me.

i'm sorry love.i'll make it up to you someday when the hormones and feelings are no longer raging inside of me.

and sorry daddy.although im not going anywhere today.i turned down your offer for a JB trip.i'm just not in the mood.don't worry.you can get me the Kuntilanak dvd some other time ok. =)

Beary Hugzzz @ |3:43 PM|

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

pls skip this entry if you don't have 1/2 hour to read. =)

i dint go sch today.simply because,like what Mr Lawrence said,ive graduated.like real.and i dont need to sign my name too wen i cme.heh.anyway. i was just lazy.actually,wanted tag along to JB wif mummy.bt since daddy is already taking half-day just to send his sayang to JB,i decided to back out and just stay in the comfort of my home.eheh.

to school on Monday after two weeks of no school.i can say,i miss school.the long journey doesnt seems as dreadful anymore.but it'll be a torture without de dear mp3.i adore lonely bus/mrt rides-jiwang-ing.hehs.

Monday started off really fine.i spent the whole time yakking away with love in the morning while i was gettin ready for school,and him.on the way to sch.using the earpiece-that is.i should have bought my dear handphone somewhere else where there was free bluetooth device.hmmft.nvm.im never going to use it outside too.to school.and there was only two peeps in class wen i reached.hmm.after sch.love was already waiting outside wen i went out.no.i didnt expect it.and i thot of joinin de gurls to eat first before he reach AMK but since he was aready der,den nvm.

i got love a gift.smethg really useful.and dis is the first i got him such a gift.a card.but not just any card.a MasterCard.ive always been wanting to get him one.so he wont hav to envy me whenever i make any signature purchases.or some online purchasing.heh.i applied online for his MasterCard.but there was a problem where his thumbprint is needed.so i hav to personally bring him down to the bank.as much as i wanted it to be a surprise,it no longer was.but its ok.i am glad he was stil overjoyed.heh.so love,from now on,i'll make purchases with your account alright.heh.and finally,you can make signature purchases and no longer have to envy me.but i'll stick to being your secretary with online purchases since ur card is not as great as mine.hehs.

after making his card,we dont know where to go.we've decided to go out since he said he ended sch at 12.but then.he has a tutorial at 4 til 6.followed by dikir meetin in CCK at 7.45.i was pissed,initially.but nvm.so we decided to hav lunch before he has to be back in sch.AMK hub.only NTUC fairprice was open.den he wanted to hav KFC.but i don't want to go back to Blk 715 to just hav KFC.why?because i was from there la ok.my sch.heh.so i decided to go ZingDo/BREEKS!.i am NOT evil ok.it was MY treat.and it does cost a lil baby bomb.but its never a matter.hehe.no celebration at all.i was just feeling,in love.heh. =)


and then we went NYP and i waited for him while he has his 2-hour(which ended in 1 1/2 hr) tutorial.i was so bored without the laptop.so he asked me to write a 500-words essay while hes gone.an essay on-how much i love him.can u believe it?ishh!stil,i ended up writing two pages full.of nonsense.nothing on how much i love him or whatever nots.but how much my stomach was in pain and i needed the toilet.with sound effects added(in words la ok!).and i love the look on his face while readin.and the laughter that burst out from his mouth.and he folded the paper nicely and kept it safe and soundly in his bag tho i wanted him to throw.hmmft.

and after his class we went Jg East Ent to waste time before hes supposed to go CCK fr his meetin.bot Mcs and spent the time sittin in the ice-skatin rink.well.outside the rink.not much difference after renovation.i wonder wat they renovated.an ice-hockey game was going on.Canadian organization/sch.and the kids are like 4 yrs old lah ok.simply adorable.i wish i cld skate that well(i wish i cld skate!).or maybe,my kids?hmm.and my love was in awed seeing the zamboni machine working right infrnt of him for the first time in his life.so im far better than him.cos ive seen that thing working right infront of me when i went skating a few years ago.and i remembered how i struggled to get out of the rink just because of the zamboni machine!hmmft.

and my flowy skirt got stuck in the escalator AGN!i was so so pissed.i dont even know wif wat.i've been holding it up wen i go up and down the escalator.but while gg down the escalalot at Jg East.i wanted to fall and so i let go to keep my balance.then i felt a pull and my skirt was aready stucked!and there my skirt stained wif yucky black oil once agn.alot of it at dat!and so.i decided not to follow love to CCK anymore.and i dirtied both my hands and all fingers while tryin to get rid of the oil,which i give up soon after cos i failed miserably.urgh!and mummy just had to make noise.and sayin dat one day my skirt just gonna get stuck and i'll be half-naked in public.thanks mummy.i love you so much lah ok.ishh.

and yesterday afternn.i was napping when i heard love's voice.i panicked.was that him?and yes.it was him!i jumped off bed.closed the door.and i don wanna see him cos i havent bathe!oh no!so i called him and he was behind my door.he said we could just talk without the phone.but i stil want to.i can talk to him for free,you see.i was scolding him though the phone.askin him to go away.and if hes stil behind my door.i wouldnt want to talk to him.i know.i am such a,biatch at times.but well.i am stil a good girlfriend ok.*self-praise*

we talked abt marriage wif mummy.de topic just came out.then he asked mummy how many kids she want us to hav.oh no!and he told mummy he wanted 6.and i was screamin at him and mummy just laughed.my love sure is one tak-tau-malu guy.its true when they say.opposite attracts.hah.

and i couldnt believe this.daddy just donwan to pass me the 380 bucks ive to pay for the exam fees.he said he will pay to BMC straight thru his account.i said cannot.must pay at BMC AMK.only cash and nets accepted.then he said he will go to Jg East to pay.i said cannot.must AMK.then he said he'll pass me a cheque.i said cannot.i just dono what else to say to daddy.and mummy whispered to me that daddy like dont trust me.i think so too mummy.lets say it together.clearly in daddy's ears!

but i love my daddy tho.he was askin me to call this agency for details to Kuching,Sarawak.i suddenly dont feel like going there tho i did suggested it.i told him lets go Phuket instead.no mood to go Bangkok already.and he asked me to find the details and everything.mummy was makin noise that its already late and we're stil not sure where to go.and asked me if we cld just cancel de trip.no mummy.no.and sorry mummy.tho ure daddy's sayang.he stil sayang me more ok.and daddy wont disappoint me.right daddy?heh.

i am pampered.spoilt.rottenly.but i know how to behave myself when im out there ok.and im oh-so-independent and i am nothing like a spoilt brat infront of my dear friends.right dears?hahah.

ok goodbye.

behind the smile and happiness lies a heart that needs some stitching up

Beary Hugzzz @ |9:29 PM|

Sunday, February 04, 2007

congratulations Singapore.for the victory.for a job so well done.too bad de mister F wasnt playing.

anyway.its over.

February starts on the wrong note.such wrong note.

love.thanks for the time yesterday.im glad Popeyes made you went way a lil excited.resurfacing the lil kid in such a big bod.

and i hope supper in McD doesnt make you sick in the coming days with the mixture of ice milo and lemonlime at one shot.and altho i couldnt smell and look at your love-applepie,i felt really satisfied knowing just how much you love having it.

TKC and Changi Airport went just the way we want it to.with some unwanted moments that is.

now.everythg is over.im hanging.i just want to let go of everything.to face the world as if nothing has ever happened.

here i am.once again.im torn into pieces.
shattered like never before.

Labels: its over.

Beary Hugzzz @ |11:07 PM|

Friday, February 02, 2007

i feel like shuttin myself from the whole world.

but i cant bring myself to do it.

and suddenly.i don even know what i shld do or feel.

and love.its been so long since we had quality time together.i need to see you.asap.

Beary Hugzzz @ |8:35 PM|



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