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Sunday, August 27, 2006

i noe.its been sme tyme since ive updated dis blog of mine.smethg's wrong wif my comp.and last nyte i finally decide to recover it.hopin all my files and watever nots in my comp wil be saved.bt no.they've totally vanished aft de recovery.i lost all de songs in my wmp.all my pretty pretty pics.and of cos.all de docs dats ive saved.and one of dem is.my dear proj wich takes weeks to hav de info collected and compiled.fr nw.all i wanna do is put all dat aside.one day.one fine day.i'll get it all back.*sobs*

been busy recently.full of thgs goin on.been tired.bt its terribly nice to be busy wif thgs you simply love doin and nt thgs dat you dislike.i feel so in love.so loved.hahah.

ok lets start wif just sme dates dat add colour in my life.

150806(Tues)
de day my one and onli sis turns 25.ppl said she looks younger den me.wel.she shorter fr me dats fr sure.younger.hmmph.cos she has dat kiddy look in her i guess.i look mature.atleast mroe den her.hah.ok.HAPPY BIRTHDAY sis.i love you lotsa.me and dy went over to my uncle's in Yishun to celeb her burfdae.fr de 2nd tyme.in my earlier entry we celeb her burfdae at EC Park wif a bbq.my cuz's idea to mke it at Yishun.its de 1st tyme i went over to my uncle's place since he moved a few mths ago.or wks ago.was stuck outside de gate since cldnt get thru my cuz to open de gate fr us.den der was dis guy who cme along and let us go in first.i said thanks and pretended as if ive forgotten to bring my card to tap at de gate.haha.onli my cuz and her bf was hme cookin.so we offered to help.bt of cos.i didnt realie help in de cookin bt dy did.haha.den we wer thinkin hw nice if we hav a home as such and do de cookin together.i WILL learn hw to cook ok.hah.and at nyte.we hav such a nice tyme aft de cake-cuttin and eatin.just slackin at de sofa watchin tv and we both just don wanna go home.sis and cus asked to slpover bt i donwan to.went back wif dy.and its aready late.money wasted on cab agn.urgh!
and before we go over to Yishun.we went to de zoo.whee!!de 1st tyme ever i went out wif my dear dip mates.and yes.i brought dy along cos ders another empty tix since aida nt comin.so as nt to waste de tix i asked dy along.anyway im supposed to go wif him act.and.i bullied him to carry de nasi lemak i brot fr all of us.haha.thanks dear.we wer caught in de rain.and de rain doesnt seem to stop.haiz.we sure had fun.and as much as i wanna upload de pics in here.ive lost it all.*holds scream*

170806(Thurs)
our 39 months.went JB to send dy's raye clothes.since we're der.we went shoppin and watchin movie.went JUSCO and City Square.spent hundreds.bot sis and cuz burfdae gifts.a Converse limited-edition bag wich i kinda like fr sis.so can share.haha.and an adidas watch fr cuz.ders a super sale.dy bot me shirts.i so feel lyk gg back agn and shop agn.we watched Click!.and ate at Kenny Rogers.i was totally embarrassed twice ok.lyk totally embarrassed.i wanna fall while i was smilin to one of de waitress who was sayin bye and thank you and all dat stuffs.shit la.and another was wen i was so damn pissed wif dy dat i walked so damn fast and ended up wantin to go up de wrong escalator.it was on de opposite way.damn embarrassin.i feel lyk diggin a hole and buryin myself.seriously.anyway.my baby spent all his money on me and atlast we don hav enuff to get his thgs.i feel so terribly bad.wanna change more money bt he stopped me frm doin so.thanks darlinn.nxt tyme we'll get ur stuffs alryte.

200806(Sun)
was feelin super down.went to tke de nasi briyani frm Holland V and den went over to dy's place and gav him de rice.and i headed to BG and just sat der lyk a broken girl.seriously pathetic.hah.

230806(Wed)
met dy at his hse bustop first and he sent me to sch.was late.hahah.put my handbag in his bag and he passed me dis black spongy pouch to place my bk.haha.aft sch waited fr him wif haimin and we went town.had lunch at lucky plaza and walked arnd before he sent us to Caldecott Hill Mediacorp fr de sg idol.1st tyme watched sg idol live.and wel.its fine.my eardrums feel lyk burstin at times.haha.wen hady sang de malay song,lagenda,i was so...wel.i realized hw good he was la den.hmm.so nw i noe who im supportin.and we made frens wif dis two sisters.not bad huh.and watchin de repeat telecast on tv last nyte i saw myself on tv.hahah. :)

240806(Thurs)
Sentosa getaway wif my big baby was simply beautiful.xcept de small lil tiffs we had.made up and everythg was just so beautiful.tanjung beach was so serene.wen de dog is nt runnin arnd our area dat is.hah.i love you darlinn.and yes we frgot to go get new zealand ice-crm.ish.anyway.here's two pics of us in Merlion.

250806(Fri)
first tyme i dint go sch since i was studyin in BMC.eye irritation.de whites of my right eye was all red.i so wanted to go sch.fr de proj wich im stil so blur abt.and since haimin's bk is wif me.wel our bks are wif dy bt i thot of droppin by his place to tke it before gg sch since its on de way.thinkin.thinkin.and atlast i slept back wen my eyes kinda hurt.sorry haimin u dn hav ur bk fr class.and aft prayers.my baby sme over wif lunch.LJS hot & spicy chicken meal wich are nt spicy and hot at all.hrrmp!thanks anyway darlinn.and he played ps2 while i just lie der.hah.

and ive been doin yoga(wif all de wrong moves) recently.daddy has bought us de yoga ball and mat fr us to do yoga.and since im doin it all wrong.i hurt my neck yest and im havin backache.thanks uh. ;)

and now ive yet to go buy my contacts.and im so tired waitin fr my baby who's supposed to cme and pass me de tent since sis wanna use it tmr.

til den sweets. =)

Beary Hugzzz @ |4:56 PM|

Thursday, August 17, 2006

i hurriedly went out of de kitchen a min ago aft tellin mummy smethg and saw fire sparkling.no nt directed at me.bt dear sis.hah.

im tired.too much to update.bt i dn tink i hav de strengh to do so tonight.im tired.and down wif a cold.thx to de rain on de zoo trip a couple of daes ago.i guess im losin my powerful-immunity-system.hah.

nonetheless.ive been kept busy.showered wif pure love-ness.bein too pampered wif overflowin love.i hope i don drown.cos yes.ive yet to learn swimmin.and be able to swim by myself instead of screamin and grabbin smeone wen im let go to swim on myself.hah.pathetic me.

ive done my shoppin today.more lyk gettin gifts fr sis and cuz.and along wif it.empty my wallet.and my baby's.we spent hunreds today.and i ended up shocked wif de depletion of de money.its too fast dat de money's all gone dat you don even realize it.haiz.

i hope i cld update all dat i wan to by tmr.til den.goodnyte sweets.

HAPPY 39 mths anni,love.thank you fr everythg.

Beary Hugzzz @ |11:17 PM|

Sunday, August 13, 2006

dis few nights had been late-night-outs.and its super-duper fantastic. =)

celeb national day down at esplanade on wed.den to marina sq and suntec.came hme arnd midnight.tired bt everythg was fine.thurs was supposed to go fr sg idol results show.smethg cropped up and its cancelled.bt had a good tyme shoppin at IMM wif mummy and sis.

ive updated de details of these two days on de post before dis.so dis is just a simplified version.

[FRI 11/08/06]
well.fri.went sch as per normal.i was a lil late den usual.bt stil turns out early.geez.bt wel.i was lookin forward to de later part of de day.i cld meet my big baby aft sme tyme.and i noe it spells out fun.aft sch went wif de mates fr lunch.wich dey had bt nt me since im havin lunch ltr wif dy.den me and haimin went off to meet de insurance guy at KFC.wel.lets call him Mr Jamal.or Jamal.as he calls himself.we chatted as if we're frens.no formalities.and its good to see haimin gettin on along fine wif him.thanks gurl fr accompanyin me anyway.

went off to Novena.waited fr my big baby.i thot of waitin fr him at TTSH itself.bt kinda lazy to walk der.bt hes a lil late and i wish i had gone over to TTSH.bt nvm.dn we headed to city hall.went Suntec to get sis's tent,flowers,watever not.bot a tent.got a bouquet of roses fr sis's fren who's de burfdae gurl too.and we got sis a huge sunflower.its so beautiful i simply loves it.dy wanted to get it fr me bt i insisted on givin it to sis since i havent got her any gift.i thot of doin so wen i go shoppin nxt wk.so yah.

we den headed to Bedok and took a cab to East Coast.noone's der yet.bt sis and her bf cme soon after.de fun began.anyway.dont ever ask me to do de bbq myself ok.de fire scares me.and de heat distracts me most time.haha.dydy helped in de bbq.and i just hang arnd der.was full.full.full.sis sleptover bt i donwan to cos i donwan to let dy went hme by himself.reached hme aft midnite.and de cab fare was $35 frm east coast to jg and farrer rd. :/

de best part was to sit on top of de water.wif de wind blowin so strongly.de seawater splashin at us as it hits hard on de water.and de moon above us.i wish we cld be der longer.and i thank God i hav eeu darlinn.loves.

pics...i noe...i super-rarely post pics in my blog...bt wel...here are some... :)

de burfdae gals.sis and kak ima.best frens who're turnin 25 on 15th august.

one loves fruit cake while de other loves choc cake.

us.de sunflower i bought is so pretty isnt it? ;)

eyein de food while tryin to protect myself frm de fire and heat.dats me alryte. :obaby fireworks?so lyk an 'apek' squattin and wearin lyk dat.ooops.hahah. ;)

[SAT 12/08/06]
and yes.Sat.fetched boboy frm his religious class.waited fr dy to wake up and went off to meet him.went town.and den had a call dat his mum was in hospital due to food poisonin.so we went off to Alex hosp.his mum was out of de A&E and was discharged.thank God.met them fr a while den dey went home while we went Queesnsway sc,arnd de area and IKEA bldg to find a place to glue dy' shoe sole.and atlast we found it at IKEA bldg.and it was exp ok.just to put some glue.haha.took de bus to Queenstown and went off to City Hall.

went Marina and Suntec and practically everywhere wer full.we cldnt find a place to eat and i totally hav no appetite cos of dat.went to Esplanade and ders so many ppl.wen ders stil lyk 2 hrs before de firewerks start.atlast found a place to sit.and w/o me realizin.dat was one of de best place to sit since it was de nearest to wer de firewerks wil cme out frm.dy was nt feelin too good since he hates uncontrolled crowds.sorry dear.bt stil.we had fun.fun fun fun.de firewerks were so beautiful.wif our hands entangled together.my body and head leanin on to dy.and de 'i love yous'.everythg was just superb.nice.simply beautiful.and de fact dat we got one of de most strategic place.whee. =)

we walked off frm der.feelin lyk de whole Sg population is der since it was so crowded.bt its kinda fun tho to squeeze amongst ppl.haha.went Funan fr nthg.den walked to Boat Quay.den took MRT frm Raffles and to Clem.had Mc.and by de tyme we went hme its already gg to midnight.another day of reachin hme late. ;)

we planned to catch every firewerk if dey are to come agn in de comin yrs.probably in de car or at The Oriental so we don hav to be squashed amidst thousands or even millions of ppl.hah.
i never noe how much dat slipper wich dy said was pretty cld hurt my feet.dy said my skin is even more-sensitive den those of a princess.i dont deny.haiz.blisters everywer and dey're so painful.but its ok.my so-not-gentle-personal-nurse was der buyin me a pack of plaster,drink and squattin in de middle der plasterin my feet.haha.i feel so loved.

and dear.de quarrels we had yest was so hurtin and painful at those point of times they broke out.in anger.we said thgs we dont mean.we did wat we shldnt.bt wen we made up.everythg seems to fly away.and at de end of de day.eeu thanked me fr de wonderful day we had.and de 'i love you' means so terribly much altho its been nearly 4 yrs of hearin it frm eeu.we noe how much we are loved and how much we really love each other.i thank eeu fr everythg.and i noe how blesed i am to hav eeu loving me.

and anyway.im overwhelmed wif emotions watchin de repeat of NDP earlier.super-sensitivity.

~loves~

Beary Hugzzz @ |11:16 PM|

Thursday, August 10, 2006

ive deleted two whole entries before dis.i just feel like it.

anyway.i was so close to watchin de sg idol results show not onli live.bt to be der personally.bt yes.de opportunity and chance just flew at de last moment.bt lyk wat dy say.de chance wil cme agn.hopefully.

bt its stil disappointin since ive made plans fr it.and de fact dat i turned down jb trip and ended up gg IMM wif mummy and sis.to be hurryin onli to end up wif de trip to watch sg idol cancelled.ouh nvm.i cme back late anyway.

and yest was depressin.to be so eager and wat we planned out turned de way its not suppose to be.we ended up at esplanade instead of marina as planned.wif much mor lil ppl.don wanna talk abt it.sat infrnt of de giant lcd scrn.saw everythg bt fireworks.dats disappointin.really!we shld hav stick to marina.and yes i brought boboy along.atleast im realie glad he cld behave himself.

to think i sacrificed my batam trip just to be wif them.and atlast.haiz.smetymes i wish ppl are more responsible.and thoughtful.lyk seriouslie.and yes nita.we were happy and did enjoy ourselves tho.

and oh ya.i met him.i frgot his nme.hahah.its been so long.years to be exact since ive last met him.and hear frm him.i cld hardly recognise him if he didnt call my name.and can i say he looks better den last tyme?hah.

and altho my baby cldnt be der wif me to whisper 'i love you' in my ear as de fireworks go crackin in de sky lyk before.he sent me an 'i love you' msg.expected.bt stil.i feel terribly loved.bt of cos.i cldnt see de fireworks frm esplanade.nt at all.bt dy told me its goin to be fine cos we'll be catchin it on sat.and he consoled me further by sayin he took video of it so i cld watch it ltr.thx darlinn.bt yes i am jealous cos de firewerks wer just above ur head.or it seems to be.nxt tyme i'll join you fr duty ok. ;)

reached hme close to midnyte and was super duper tired.anyway we get to noe dis aunt who tagged along wif us.and she lost her hp aft de celebration.it was disappointin.i wld hav cried if its me.

ok.im goin to do sme stuffs before gg to slp.stil hav sch tmr.den slackin fr a while wif min.meetin de insurance guy.meet my baby.go town.run around fr stuffs.and to de bbq.ok.i hope everythg works out well. =)

oh HAPPY sort-of-belated BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE.my ever-beloved country.hope you grow to be an even better country.peaceful.harmonious.successful.beautiful.everythg positive can??

--huggs and kisses--

Beary Hugzzz @ |10:45 PM|

Friday, August 04, 2006

im near-de-lowest-point in lyfe currently.of cos.our lyfes are lyk de wheels.smetymes ure up and smetymes ure down.wen ure up.everythg seems beautiful.you wld wan to stay dat way.forever.its true we choose de way we wan to lead our lyfes?bt do we really get wat we wan all de tyme?no.we dont.

bein near-de-lowest point is painful.i noe.alot of you dears out der wil agree wif me.how much we struggle to get out of de situation wich we realie hates.how much we hope tmr will be a better day.fr our sadness,hurts and pains to disappear.its hurtin deep inside.bt we bury it deep inside ourselves.we show de world nthg seems to be wrong.we're happy.wen unknowingly we're torn deep inside.broken.wil thgs get better and hearts be mended perfectly back?

nobody said it's easy to live.to love.to be who you are.

smetymes we don mean to to do wat we do.we nvr noe de effects of wat we do.or said.unknowingly.de werds cut too deeply to be just forgotten and put aside.silently i cried in class.wen asked.of cos i hide everythg away and said nthg's wrong.im just de usual me.dear,thanx fr noticin.is dis a pay-back aft i noticed ur bad mood last wk?hah.

wel.i am fine.guess thgs are just not as good.yes i noe.everythg's gonna get beter.

feelings shld nt be compressed much.it shld be voiced out at tymes.bt yet.sme thgs are beter left unsaid.cos sayin it wil just make everythg worse.

my eyes hurt.i tried nt to break down.bt yes.de current of my emotions are too strong.

im sorry.
im not a superwoman.

Beary Hugzzz @ |10:55 PM|

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

i keep thinkin today is mon or fri.i dono why.

early mornin went bad enuff wen i dint manage to wake dy up on tyme even tho i set my alarm.i promised him i'll wake him up.guess de tiredness frm yest was realie bad.and yes.he was late.and thanks to me.i feel terribly bad.

anyway.went sch early today.actualie nt dat early bt everyone seems to be comin late so im considered early.cos went wif sis.and she was such a nag.keep askin me to hurry cos shes late.and i cldnt be bothered cos i dnwan be so early.bt good also la.she bought me bread.haha.and atleast she cld accompany me since mp3's wif dy.bt i was nt dat early afterall.mr lawrence aready cme b4 me.so yah.a few mins ltr de others start comin.

aft sch.went JB wif mummy since shes nt werkin today.its lyk an every-week thing.went to de usual place.collect de goods.den went to eat.no fish and chips.so ended up eatin rice wif all de dishes and cld hardly get up den.haiz.atlast nvr even buy my pants cos im lyk so tired aready.im veri fussy so it'll tke me long to choose and try them on.so frget it la.

and i ended up plannin so much fr de zoo trip wen i shldnt be de one in charge.ok nvm.

and dey made plans to watch firewerks and celeb National Day together.and i cldnt promise dem dat i'll join dem.cos its nt confirm if im gg overseas fr a short trip.i so wanted to go der fr shoppin and do up my hair.haha.and nita accused me of nt bein a Singaporean.sheesh.

and anyway.chattin wif him mkes me feels weird.he always ask abt dy.and he said he'll wait fr me.mayb we're fated to be together.i told him to frget it.im attached.and he was sayin dat we cld break and he'll woo me agn.lyk.wat de.oh frget it.

im missin yest.de beautiful walk in BG.and eeu noe wat(who) im missin most of all. =)

thanks fr treatin me lyk a queen.bt stil i wanna be a princess can? ;)

Beary Hugzzz @ |11:23 PM|

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

im crazy over de song called SUPERWOMAN by Karyn White dis few daes.i noe.its kinda old.perhaps very.bt it doesnt matter.and wel.i noe im not a superwoman.and no.im not heartbroken to be attached to de song.hah.

anyway.aft 2 wks i met my baby today.fetched him frm werk.travelled all de way to Novena.de timing was just ryte.reached der fr a few mins before my baby appears infrnt of me.and we dono wer to go cos all we tink abt was to meet.his dad called den and asked to fetch his sis cos he cant mke it.so de plan just appear lyk dat.hah.so fetched his sis who just fin her Napha test.den we went Pizza Hut fr lunch.my baby's treat.wel its de first tyme we went out together.i mean me and his sis.bt wel.we did get along kinda wel.and wen we went to de ladies.she shocked me frm another cubicle as i cme out of mine wif her "boo!".and we had our ladies talk and had fun havin 'verbal fight' wif dy.and of cos.de ladies win.hahah.

den we sent her hme.anyway.she's called Ella.in short.and she's in pri 4.i don wanna went up so i waited downstairs.and it turned out dy's mum cme back frm hme as i was sittin at de bench.i dint see her earlier cos i was msgin.i just guessed it was her wen i saw a lady lookin lyk her infrnt of de lift.i wanted to go over bt de lift aready cme.so nvm.and it turned out its realie her.i was lyk feelin real bad i dint say anthg to her or wat.haiz.

den dy got to noe his grandma fell.so they're goin over to her place at Bt Panjang.i kept quiet at first.den i blew.and i dn care watever he said or did to calm me down.i just wanted to be alone.i walked.half-runnin.as in.i walked so de very fast im amazed i cld walk at such speed at such a distance.i cont even wen dy tried to stop me.and said sme werds to him wich makes him slow down.honestly.i felt happy den.hah.happy i hurt him.i noe.kill me.and i dint stop at de bustop.i went on.all de way to de EcoGarden at BG.and into BG itself.i noe dy followed bhind.bt i just dint stop.or even slow down.til he cme bside me and held my hands.i was perspirin and near-breathless.hah.

and.he didnt go over to his grandma's.i feel bad.of cos.de fact dat he said fr my sake.and he don wanna go.i was damn angry at myself.just wat de heck is wrong wif me?

bt we ended up havin a realie nice tyme der.xplorin de new area and went to de new Taman Serasi foodcourt to hav drinks and dessert.hmm.nice.den sat at de bench arnd de water area and went off wen ders a rat der.haha.den walked all de way back to de EcoGarden and sat der.it was realie dark.hah.bt de atmospehere was nice. =)

and we took 157 and my baby was slpin most of de way.i wish im drivin.atleast my baby wil reach hme faster.and it cld ensure him a few mor mins of slpin and rest.haiz.anyway.went 7-11 near my place.bot Big Gulp.and it got spilled at de cashier area.bt stil.we paid fr it.anyway de cashier guy was nice la.he cleaned it up and dint get angry.mayb he's cursin in his heart.hahah.

my eyes are super tired.and so is my body.bt nvm.i'll just accompany my baby while he do his werk online.

another day of sch tmr.and im goin to be bored on de way der since de MP3 wif dy.i passed him earlier to help me keep since my handbag was pathetically tiny.and yes.he left it at hme wen he went back to send his sis.sheesh.

and my feet are hurtin.thanks to my lil-heels.

nytes ppl.

Beary Hugzzz @ |11:58 PM|

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