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Monday, May 29, 2006

im lyk so tired..a few mins ago i decided to lie on de bed while waitin fr my cuzzie to use de comp..and yes i dozed off secs aft my head touched de pillow..and de worse thg is..i actualie talked in my slp..wel its nt a habit..it just happened dis tyme..i heard myself talkin..tho im sure im slpin..and soon i heard my sis askin if i wanna be lyk her hu talks in her slp..i den asked her to shut up..its amazing wat u cn do wen ure tired and feelin kinda unwell..my throat's bin so itchy my cough's gettin worse..bt here i am drinkin coke..hah...

i met my baby aft sch today..wel sch was fine tho many wer sufferin frm "monday blues"..de class was quiet unlyk other daes..xcept fr de complaints of de freezin temperature inside..hah..and yes..went over to yck and waited fr my baby b4 we went off to Lido..watched da vinci code and we wer off to Bugis..bot de shirt wich ive bin wantin to get since i last saw it on fri..walked arnd..dy wanted to get me sme other stuffs bt i dont feel lyk gettin anythg..thanks anyway dear fr ur offer..den we both just dont hav de mood to spend any more tyme der and took de train..yes we wer quarrellin..bt wel its over..stoopit me..urgh!den my baby wanted to bring me go suntec since i wanted to go..bt wel we didnt..alight at Lakeside and my baby wanted to eat KFC bt i gt other plans on my mind..brot him to eat infrnt of my place..de whole big round table was full..haha..we had kampong fried rice,hot plate beancurd,nestum chicken,black pepper beef and sambal kangkung..and yes 3 cans of drinks..im aready full even b4 i fin my first round..bt im so proud of my baby..cos he cn realie eat!haha..altho we nvr fin de rice and veg..its ok...

we spouted werds wich never shld be heard by anyone else..smiled..laughed..looked at each other..touched our stomachs and shook our heads..we wer too full and all we wanted to do was throw ourselves on MY bed..considerin de near-ness we're to it..lyk..a min walk?and yes..we wanted to throw ourselves on de bed and just close our eyes..and im sure we'll be in dreamland within seconds...

ok i better go do my research..yet another distintion..and im suppose to do it every single day and present one every sch dae..geez..and another assignment of calculatin value..im lyk so drained and full to do anythg bt lie on de bed and slp while listenin to my baby's voice..hah...

i love my baby lots.period. =)

Beary Hugzzz @ |11:42 PM|

Sunday, May 28, 2006

woke up wif a realie bad sore throat..its so painful to just swallow my saliva..and de pain was till my ears..its so much worse den yest..my baby was worried..asked me go doc..bt dat wont work on me..smeone hu hates goin to de doc..hu hates med even more..so y waste money?haha..and yes..i keep suckin on ricola sweets..i mean i keep havin de ricola sweets la ok..as if it helps anyway..bt dn care la...

thanks anyway my beloved-personal-private mister nurse..fr gettin werried abt me all de tyme..i noe ure a nurse..bt perhaps u cld spare me wif visitin de doc and gulpin down dat horrible-eewy-yucky med??haha...

and now my mister nurse has rushed off to alex hosp to see his uncle who suffered high bp and breathlessness..talk abt bein busy..talk abt bein a nurse..duh!!

and oh..kids nowadays are realie lucky arent dey?my seven-goin-to-be-eight yrs old bro was given de green-light to use a hp and my dad got him a prepaid card..i stil insist on him bein too young to use a hp..bt ouh wel..hes nt goin to tke advantage of it i guess..so i'll just shut my mouth up...

ok i'll stop here to go do my research..ive bin doin dis fr lyk weeks and yes..stil continuin..distiction distinction..ouh wel..i'll stop complainin and get on wif it..cos i hav a strong feelin he's goin to ask abt it agn tmr..ahh headache...

and tomoro im suppose to hav a long-awaited date wif my baby..dat is if he ends sch early..bt nvm..if we cant hav a date aft sch..i'll be content enuff wif him sendin me to sch as promised...

oh thanks baby...*smiles* =)

Beary Hugzzz @ |9:54 PM|

Saturday, May 27, 2006

lets get to de point.

went URA cntre as a sch trip yest..wel mor lyk a class trip..frm der met sis,cuzzie and her bf at bugis..shopped and den continue to shop at town..haha..and de whole tyme i was feelin not so wel..and yes my whole body was achin and hurtin i feel totally weak..as if i cld just passed out..bt yes i persevere..hold on to de best i cld..haha..and yes my baby went der too wif his fam..and we wer so near each other..bt nvr meet..and wen he wanted to meet..i was aready on de way back hme..hah..and yes my shoppin was fully sponsored by dear sis..thanks so much sis..we must do more of dis..haha...

and yes..today we had a date wif de birds..went Jurong Bird Park wif my fam and baby..and we sure had fun..after dat went hme and realize my aunts and uncles are here..so we cancelled our plan of daddy treatin us dinner..so we spent sme tyme at hme and went to JP to hav dinner..just de both us..quietly so de rest wont mke noise..haha..we ate at Banquet and we tot de guy sittin bside us was 'S'..bt wel its not i guess..wel frget it..dn wanna rmb anythg abt him...

and did i mention abt 'A' hu gets angry wen i told him im attached..wel he was de one askin me so i just told him..and yes he asked me de qn every tyme he talks to me..and wen i told him i am attached..he'll say good and start gettin angry..talkin to me lyk crap..damn wat de hell is wrong??frget it..idiotic ppl shldnt be entertained...

i had a great tyme today baby..thanks to you..love...

Beary Hugzzz @ |11:59 PM|

Thursday, May 25, 2006

im losin my voice..frm laughin and screamin..haha...

ok..today's nt much..stayed hme de whole day since ders no sch..and yes..had pizza hut fr dinner..my cuz ordered..bt de baked beefballs nt dat nice..and so is de garlic bread..hmmft..nt nonetheless..i had my fill..hahah...

and im so lookin forward to shoppin tmr..haha..meetin sis and cuzzie aft sch..luckily tmr i dn hav to go sch first..wil just meet jill at lakeside and yasmin at jg east..onli den we'll head to tg pagar fr URA buildin..daddy wanted to send since he works near der..bt guess it'll be way too early fr me..so yea...

and wen i msged mr lawrence just nw to asked if its fine if we just meet at tg pagar..he called me back..so yea..we chatted fr a while and i hav great difficulty makin out de werds he was sayin since de bckgrnd was kinda noisy..he even asked me abt de lesson and stuffs..and complimented me fr my work all dis while..thanks cher..sudd i feel kinda happy wif myself..fr once im puttin an effort in my studies..haha..and im glad abt dat..bt its thanks to him too fr bein such a great motivator..so once agn..thanks cher...

and its weird how you'll react when ur teacher call..or atleast someone important..wel atleast fr me la..de feelin is just so diff wen ur frens or ur closed ones call..hmm...

anyway..yesterday i got my baby a surprise gift..went all de way to Taka and got him his gift..den went all de way back to YCK and waited fr him outside his sch..sat fr awhile..passed his gift and he sent me back to de mrt stn since he got to go back to sch..and yes..i got him his Le Coq Sportif bag..and make sure its wrapped realie pretty...

ok i'll blog agn soon enuff..cant seem to concentrate ryte nw..bye everyone..nytes...

Beary Hugzzz @ |11:39 PM|

Monday, May 22, 2006

i deleted de whole of yest's post..guess it was too detailed..guess too much love was bein portrayed..haha...

wel yest was de semis of Mega Perdana..it went well..great..went der wif my cuzzies and we sure had a great tyme..my baby did me proud..fr de countless times since we've been together..he did terribly wel..de whole team was great..and so wer other teams..congrats to everyone involved...

Keris won de best group overall..dey wer realie great..and i feel so honoured since i watched them trained last week..bsides watchin my baby's group..all de best of luck to them fr de finals..and congrats once agn....

Mega Perdana finals wil be on de 1st of July at Esplanade Theater..my baby and i has planned to go together and get de best seats wich means de most expensive tix as my baby wants it..i dont mind..since i'll be fully sponsored..haha... ;)

yesterdae was one of de daes wen i realize how much i love my baby..how bad i wanted to tke away his pains,sadness and disappointments..bt i couldnt..lyfe is not dat easy..i wanted to be der and do more den just holdin his hand..den just huggin him fr less den a min..i so much wanted to kiss away de negativity of his feelings..de tears..and i wanna hugg him insane..i cldnt bear to see de look on his face yesterdae..my heart sank..i feel pained..i feel hurt..and yes i hate dat feelin terribly...

im feelin so so sore stil over de lost of his hp..i cld barely concentrate in class thinkin abt how he was..ugrhness..i hate de feelin of nt bein able to contact him...

~baby..no matter wat..i'll be der fr you..after all dat we've gone thru together..after all dat uve done fr me..i appreaciate it much mor den words cld ever describe..i miss you..and i love you so sugar...

Beary Hugzzz @ |10:12 PM|

Saturday, May 20, 2006

im grateful dat i cld finally access de net wifout probs ryte nw..and wif dat..i wld simply lurve to tke dis chance to blog..i miss bloggin..realie bad..i wan to blog all de tyme..everydae wifout fail bt we need to understand dat we cldnt possibly do EVERYTHG dat we wan to...

dis wk has bin goin fine..ive started sch..and tho de journey's long..its worthwhile since de lessons are kinda ineterestin and fun..i don wanna mke noise abt travellin far..all dat i wanna do is to ensure dat de outcome of it all wil be terribly pleasin..i believe dat i can do it as long as i giv it my best..bt wats mor important is..i wan it to be proven...

thanks to everyone who hav confidence in me..thanks to my parents who fork out dat lump sum to pay fr my private dip..thanks to my fam and frens who're always der..and nonetheless..to my darlinn sweetheart who stands by me and be der fr me even tho he's a thousand tymes busier...

my baby lost his hp..and yes it comes together wif his sim card..his line was off de whole tyme i tried callin him aft i cme back frm JB last aft..and ders no way i cld contact him since hes outdoor and i just dn feel lyk msgin his frens..he onli msged me and tel me abt it dis morn..im feelin terribly upset..its one of his most precious possession..and not onli his bt mine too..bsides havin to cut off de line and get a new one soon..and yes dat means i hav to rmb and get use to a new num wich im sure i'll feel realie weird wif since his used-to-be hp num has bin arnd fr yrs..he lost his contacts too..hundreds of it..and yes my hundreds of saved msges in der..hah..now its gone..and i don even tot of him gettin it back..altho he'd planned to get a new hp soon..losin de hp nw is realie painful..just why must dis happen?to lose smethg wich is so important to you is terribly terribly heartbreakin...

and yes..i've bin findin de digicam..gosh..cant find it anywer..my bro was de last to use it wen he went Phuket..he said its wif my sis bt my sis said de opposite..and now we cldnt find it..and i wanna bring it fr de Mega Perdana semis tmr..i wanna tke loads of my baby fotos and videos wen hes performin..haha..i miss him loads..tho we just met on Wed to celeb our 3 yrs anni..i hope aft de comp he wont be as busy..hah...

and i dint go fr de MI carnival wich is 2dae i guess..i cdlnt contact dear partner and i cldnt even find de coupons wich my baby has bot frm partner..gosh!i hope everythg went wel tho...

okay..guess i'll blog ltr if possible..huggs... =)

Beary Hugzzz @ |3:45 PM|

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

i cant blog much since im nt home..at my other home..and just cme back frm sch..haha..i miss bloggin as much as you guys miss readin my new entries..bt im so dead sure i miss bloggin even much more..i tried to go online everydae bt failed..de net wil just get disconnected wen i wan to blog..haizz...

all dat i cld say now is..school rawks so far..its interestin..i so love to travel arnd de world..tourism..de whole topic is just so interestin so far..and its more challengin gettin arrowed by de "fun" lecturer all de tyme..haha..its nt easy bt im sure i cn get thru it smoothly as long as de interest and perseverance is der...

and lastly...HAPPY 3 YRS ANNIVERSARY to my one and only darlinn..huggs and kisses frm me to you sugar... (,")<3(",)

to all you dears..take care...huggies... =)

Beary Hugzzz @ |2:15 PM|

Saturday, May 06, 2006

a few mins ago i cld hav just went straight to dreamland if i let myself lie on dat ever-so-comfy bed of mine..bt i told my body to hold on and went to watch de results of de votin today..seriouslie..it doesnt affect me actualie..esp wen my place is nt even involved..bt wel..im gettin to de age wer i guess i shld start botherin abt politics of my own cntry and stuffs..to tink i hav bin a pure humanes student all dis while..a history student..now ders no wonder fr de grades ive bin gettin fr history..hah...

bt i ended up watchin a wee bit and got bored..im so sorry dear ministers..govt..political ppl and everyone who feels lyk gunnin me down due to my lack of political interest...

im startin to feel de tiredness risin in me agn..urgh!wel..i went out wif ibu,cik nong and my cuzzies earlier..went shoppin..hah..bt cme back wif onli ONE paper bag and it doesnt even contain MY stuff..hmmft!!bt dear granny's Mothers' Day gift..nw i gotta start makin up my mind wat i shld get fr mummy..$$..haizz...

wells..im so attracted to so many handbags..de temptation to buy yet another is at its peak esp since ders a storewide sale..bt i just got one handbag lyk..a week ago??and urghness..der i am wantin so many more..and de bad-yet-good part is..ders noone to pull me away frm dat place!!haha...

and we had LJS since my guy-cuz has bin wantin to eat der..and yea..its bin ages since i last had LJS..bt i dn miss it tho..haha..sorry yarr to those hurt by my werds...

and in my own busy-ness..i put sme tyme aside to survey thgs dat i cld get fr my mister man..and dis has bin goin on fr 3 yrs non-stop..and im lovin every moment of it and even more each tyme...

headin back to our respective homeys left me travellin back alone..my aunts had wanted to cme over my place bt seein de tyme..its too late..since one's at sembawang and de other at hougang..bt im fine wif it tho..i don mind..bt i shld hav known earlier dat my darlinn mister ended trainin much much earlier today so he cld fetch me frm der and send me hme..bt too bad he himself dint noe of it and i cldnt possibly force him to travel all de way and send me hme..its tyme to be independent..im a big big gurl..hah..anyway im home safely arent i?tho dy was so werried since i walked hme frm lakeside instead of listenin to him to tke a bus..and serve me ryte i hurt my legs on de way home fr nt listenin to him..hah...

and all dat ive got to say nw is..im missin my mister man so much..it feels ages since we last spend quality tyme..and de dates dat has lined up fr us is lyk so so far away stil..darlinn..i so feel lyk kickin ur other commitments aside and be de onli one standin on de path of ur werk..bt i'll try to understand..de angel in me is tryin to be strong..and i noe dat at de end of it all..im goin to be der standin proud bside eeu..and ur competition means as much to me as it is to eeu...

wif lots of love.huggs and kisses.goodnyte frm me to all of eeu my darlings. =)

Beary Hugzzz @ |11:57 PM|

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

HAPPY 18th BURFDAE TO MY DARLIN SHAN SHAN AND DEAR SHERRY.

i dono wats wrong wif my stomach.dis few daes smethg has bin goin wrong in der.and its hurtin me big tyme.i wish i cld see wats happenin inside.i realie wish i cld tho i noe i'll get realie sick den.

anyways.hav u ever feel lyk turnin back tyme and wish u nvr grow up and stay at an age or at a tyme and not to ever move?yet at de same tyme u wanna mke tyme go faster and reach wat u wanna reach?ur dreams or smethg lyk dat?hah.im so feelin dat way.

i guess im gettin realie crazy.i dn even noe wat de heck imw ritin here.i feel dat im nt tinkin.bt on de other hand i noe i am.if nt i wont be able to write dis whole crap.

ok.im goin off frm here.

--i feel left-out.other commitments are above me and im pushed ryte below.i feel stuffed.breathless.neglected.smebody save me.--

Beary Hugzzz @ |10:50 PM|

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

im back.tho its bin some tyme since im back.bin busy lately.and yest i was down wif fever and vomitin.nausea.i dislike vomitin.de torture it brings to u body.and de weakness due to fever.bt i feel better 2dae.tho i woke up on a realie bad note.til afternn dat is.haiz.bt i'll be fine.cos i got my sugarush der fr me.tho hes busy he took tyme msgin me.and makin sure im fine.my own dear personal private nurse.my doctor.and he even cme over aft trainin last nyte.he reached at nearly 9.guess wer hes trainin was?at one of de rms under his own blk.haha.tho it was a quick visit.it was much appreaciated.he cme wif all de love and concern he has.haha.and b4 he left.he made me a glass of hot milo.wich i dint fin cos i fel aslp.mummy said i was too pampered.to hav him cme all de way to mke me a glass of milo.hah.anyway,thanks fr everythg sugar.

de dae dat i left fr umrah.13/4(Thurs).he sent me off to de airport.of cos wif all de other ppl.wells.too many ppl i cld sae.i feel touched.realie appreaciate it all.i was tryin hard nt to cry.told myself i shldnt cry.ders no need to.bt i cant stand it.seein dem cry,i cried too.and my darlinn was msgin me in de bus sayin he was tryin nt to cry.nenek booked a bus fr us all to get to de airport.bt we dint sit 2gether.just lyk 2 sits away.and we communicate thru msgin.hah.

we reached safely at jeddah airport at nyte.arab tyme is 5hrs later den s'pore.went straight into Madinah and reached at early morn.tireness aside.we're thankful we hav reached safely.we left fr Makkah abt 4 daes after.it was great.everythg.im glad im given a chance to be der at dis age.i wish to be der agn.i wan to go der agn.hopefully wif my whole fam and dear dy.no werds cld describe de feelin i felt wen i stood ryte infrnt of Kaabah.to hav de real thg standin tall infrnt of me.nt just a pic.nt just a frame.or de view frm de tv.its real.i get to pray so near it.i got to touch it.and kiss it.all dat i cld say.i wan to be der agn.

shoppin was great.tho i dint get to explore many places cos dear nenek's not feelin too great.bt i dont mind.we stil get to do crazy-shoppin.haha.changed so so much money.and finished dem.onli to realize its stil nt enuff.haha.wel i dint get much fr myself.bt i managed to get smethg fr practically all my close fam members.and of cos dear dy and his fam.and i got smethg fr us.dis couple's watch.its metallic blue in colour wif a shiny brite blue inside.and i so like it cos it looks real nice.haha.and im glad dear dy loves it too.and i got dear dy another watch.wif arabic numerals cos he wanted it so much.went thru all extent to get it.and it costs mor den xpected.bt nvm.money nvr matters wen it comes to him.

bt he dint fetch me back frm de airport.cos hes schlin.bt nvm.he cme over aft sch.and we both did our hands wif de inai.haha.

28/4(Fri).went out wif mummy to Lot 1.intend to buy my shoe.wel i did.and together wif dis Carlo Rino bag.de bag is meant fr sharin wif mummy.cos she lyks it too.bt wel.since i gt sme money.i paid fr it.im a good daughter.yes.for once!haha.den aft we're done wif our ladies shoppin.i went over to YCK to meet dy.and we went off to town.went Toys 'R' Us and get fr dear elly-gurl's burfdae prezzie.she wanted Winx Club stuffs so much so i gt her two sets of it.diff one la of cos.and gt her a card.wich i wrote hurriedly in de train.we had PH as much as i dn intend to.and spend a cool $40.haiz.i intend to hav smethg wich doesnt cost much fr once.haha.tho its nt my money.hes money is stil mine rite.hah.bt we stil had ice-crm frm Venezia aft dat.greedy me got triple flavours.and ended up throwin kinda much leftovers.rushed off to tke cab to catch de last ep of de chi show at 9.waited fr ages bt ended up nt takin a cab.took train down to Suntec since dey asked to join dem.met dem at Swensens.to celeb Elly's burfdae.dem refers to my sis kak lin,my cuz kak idah,kak fina and of cos elly.dey had fin eatin de main course as i cme much ltr and ive eaten anyway.we den had firehse happie burfdae and a whole 1-kg mickey and frens cake.and yes.free fries specially frm de chef cos my cuz used to worked der.and her bf is stil de manager der.so yea.i gt donald's and goofy's face on de cake i ate.haha.so happy.crazy me.and ohh.we gt so crazy over der.and we cldnt care less wat others tink even tho dey wer starin directly at us.and ohh.u guys shld check out de choc coated banana.it looks 'funny' and we had a bad tyme laughin on it.bt its nice to me.de taste i mean.hah.we left mins b4 de restaurant closes.and waited fr fendi,my cuz's bf to fin werk.hes de manager at suntec swensens la.so mite as wel we just wait fr him as wel.sat smewer and tke pics.and yes.just sat and talk n stuffs.it was aready 11+ den.den we walked to de taxi stand.so many ppl yet lyk no cabs.called cabs and my cuz and kak fina kip gettin hung up on.so i called SMRT cab.and get thru.bt i cant be bothered to talk so i passed to dy.bt gt onli 1 wen we needed 2 cabs.and de most stupidest thg is even b4 dy put de fone down,de cab was aready infrnt of us.hw pissed i get.these taxi drivers!!onli wan ppl to call.heez. and we reached hme at 12+.and i was feelin kinda frust i dint get to watch de last ep of de chi serial at 9 on chann 8.bt mummy watched it fr me and tel me de story ltr.tho its nt de same.i stil get to noe wat happened in de end.thanks mummy.

and de rest of de daes im busy wif runnin over singapore.hah.busy busy.bt wateva it is.ive bin feelin great.

xcept fr early 2dae and yest wen i was sick.i spent nearly 8 hrs at de ICA bldg bring my aunt's fam frm indon to get their pasprts chop.i was freakin pissed.wif practically everythg.dn wanna talk abt it.

out.im tired.goodbye to everyone.

sorry fr any spellin msitakes.im too tired to check dem out. :/

and ohh.

HAPPY 18th BURFDAE TO MY DEAR 'KAKAK' PAT.huggs.

Beary Hugzzz @ |11:25 PM|

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