[[*...pOOh..eeu..n mi...*]]

Saturday, February 28, 2004

im sick!!gosh..its bin sme time since i m sick!!haha..atleast feelin quite ok after a lot n alot of slp..nt dat im havin fever n all dat stuff..mebbe slight fever lah..bt mostly..its stomach pains..went clinic on thurs n de doc said i had mensus cramps..its terrible man..since wed aft..even until nw..atleast 2dae its much beter..bt stil cme n go..frustratin..bt yest..it was realie terrible..was lyk moanin in de rm..absent 4 sch on thurs..shld hav bin absent on fri 2 bt stil went 2 sch..n had 2 control de pain..terrible..my frens called n asked if im ok..i sounded so sick 2 dem..wel..yeah..my voice was realie sick yest..indeed..im feelin damn sick..he called yest nite while im tokin 2 my dydy..he sounded so shock 2 hear my voice..he even said i sounded like dyin..damn dat guy..call himself so-called big bro..haiz..stil can sae dat..bt i was 2 sick 2 bother..told dydy dat n dydy was so angry..he cant beliv dat he actuallie said dat i sounded lyk dyin..n dydy kept telin mi don listen 2 his crap..im nt dyin n nt leavin him..dydy..don get so angry k..i wont leave u lah..dun worrie..hasnt hear frm dydy de whole dae 2dae..he gt ncc in de morn n den bowlin tournament..4get 2 wish him gd luck..btw..u shld noe im always wif u rite dydy...

oh ya..tok anjang passed away on wed..it sets mi thinkin..hw fast ppl can juz leave de world..in 1 moment..u can b gone..gone away frm dis earth..went over 2 hougang on wed nite..bt de mayat was stil in hospital..wel..he fell off de bed n passed away in hosp..onli thurs can bring hme de mayat..nek piah was so kesian..she was cryin n was terribly sad..hu wldnt..she's bin wif him 4 years n years..n dey've bin realie lovin all dis while..so his sudden dimiss realie had a great impact..wen i salam her 2 go hme..she pesan mi 2 bacakan doa n al-fatihah 4 tok..i wil k..onli nw dat i cant sembahyg..btw..semoga tuhan memberkati rohnya..amin...

another ting..de avi guy is back..wel..atleast back in my life..he's bin gone 4 sme time..n wen he sudd called..i was shocked..n i was tokin 2 dydy at dat time..haiz..dydy feels unsafe again..1st 1 guy..nw 2 guys..haiz..bt i tok tings out wif him..dey r frens n onli dat..don worrie dydy..i wil always love u..shoot..de pain is comin back..i realie planned 2 study n du my sch work de whole weekend..bt i realie cant concentrate..tink i'll get gg nw..shoot..hopefuli my stomach wil get ok real soon..its scarin my dydy soo much..at de sme time scarin mi...

Beary Hugzzz @ |4:53 PM|

Monday, February 23, 2004

-work hard 4 ur future-dat shld b de motto 4 mi rite nw..haha..feelin damn guilty din get 2 du wat i wan..de whole weekend was wasted on treatin my scarred fragile heart..luckily i did sme work on sat nite..altho olittle..atleast it did help mi in 1 wae or another...

damn tired 2dae..reached hme nearly 8..haiz..i realie donwan 2 go out wif dydy..bt he was realie pleadin mi 2 spend sme time wif him..its nt dat i donwan 2 go out wif u dydy..i juz donwan any mor troubles..its time i get away frm all de troubles of relationship n focus realie wel on my studies..bt dydy was fristrated n was sayin angryly its his life..nobody has a rite 2 control him..yeah dydy..u r rite..bt u gt 2 tink..wat we du reflects on us..i noe u gt brain of urself..bt u r stil under ppl's care..even kene kacau by de mc ppl juz nw wen i went 2 buy mc 4 my lil bro..haiz..hw pathetic..i aready fel aslp in de bus n wakin up in nt a veri gd mood..sorie ppl if ur teasin tak menjadi..wrong timin..im juz nt in de mood..haha..seriously..im damn tired..tink coz of yest...

went ain's 2nd bday party yest at king albert's mc..din plan 2 go at all..indeed i donwan 2 go..coz im nt dat close wif dem..bt went coz my mummy asked mi 2..its oklah..de children in de rm wif de games n all dat stuff..n i juz sat outside wif my aunts..uncle n mum..talkin n eatin..haha..den frm der went hme 4 a while n went 2 cik nong's hse 4 kenduri..was damn tired der..helpin out..4 once..haha..usually juz sit in de rm n lek-lek..amazin i help soo much yest..was wearin all black smemor..n stayed in de kitchen thruout de whole ting..reached hme abt 12+ n was damn tired..din even du de essay..alarm supposed 2 ring at 3.30 bt cannot even hear it..wake up round 5.40..daddy woke mi up..haiz..rushin..haven iron sch u also..haiz..wat a day 2 start de week...

n 2dae..ppl r all lyk askin mi if im ok..early morn mis lina aready said halo n gd morn 2 mi..n ask if im ok..xpected..haha..niwae..thanx ya..n my frens kept askin if im ok..even tot i cried..haiz..bt dey noe im nt in de best of mood..n jen..sorie dat bcoz of mi u felt down 2..n dydy..juz wan 2 sae..i love u...

beter start workin on de malay stuffs nw..cikgu is aready pesterin..sabar eh cikgu..i don hav dat much time..n if u ppl wana noe..2 du my malay stuffs is y i cme online..haha..so beta get goin..bye...

Beary Hugzzz @ |9:22 PM|

Sunday, February 22, 2004

juz wat did i du wrong dis time...its happenin again..1 of my worst fear..i keep tinkin it was a nitemare..bt its nt..gosh..it hurts..it hurts ppl..it hurts dydy..it stil hurts..altho it has bin mor den 1 dae ago..im tryin my best 2 look on de brite side..bt i cant..wat did i du wrong dis time 2 deserve such humiliation..humiliations wich wil affect my whole entire life..dydy..help mi..coz onli u can..onli u dydy..im beggin u..it hurts..it hurms damn much...

if u tink im exaggeratin..i don care..dis blogger is 4 mi..nt 4 u..im nt angry nw..im juz hurt..help mi get out of dis situation..dydy..thanx 4 de talk yest..thanx 4 bein der wif mi thruout de nite..thanx 4 de trust n de love u hav 4 mi..i onli nd u dydy rite nw..hw much can a girl lyk mi take such a blow of humiliations at 1 time..i bet even u guys cant..im grateful i hav sme ppl hu understands mi..thanx ya..xpecialy jen n my fam members..n miss lina..thanx 4 counsellin dydy..im waitin 4 u 2 tok 2 mi tmr..i noe u wil aft wat happened..niwae..i stil can take it..de humiliations..dos accusations..wat had i done..wat hav i eva done??y muz we go thru soo much dydy..9 mths..juz 9 mths n we've gone thru all dis..my eyes hurt frm cryin..my heart is soo pain..de scar is 2 deep 2 eva be 4gotten..God..pls..help mi go thru all dis..wat is my fault..dat i love him sooo much??is dat wer my fault lies..wat rite hav ppl 2 accuse mi of such tings..wat rite hav dey 2 called mi such names n humiliated mi s if i hav no heart..no self-dignity..no self-pride..no self-honour..pls..don make mi be rude 2 u..don make mi hate u..i juz cant keep quiet wen u throw humiliations n accusations lyk dat 2 mi..dis is nt de wae 2 teach mi ppl..nt lyk dis..i wil onli b worse if u take dis wae out..u beter b grateful dat u din touch on my parents..xcept dat dey r stil feedin mi..i noe dat..n dats 1 reason..my parents is 1 reason y u shuldn't look down on mi until lyk dat..u hav no children..so dats y u tink u hav de rite 2 call other ppl's children lyk dat..wat wld my parents tink if dey noe u called mi dat..u humiliated mi soo much dat u r humiliatin dem at de same time..don make mi b soo rude 2 u..u can hate mi all u wan..i don care..i don need u..i don need u 2 lyk mi..my life wil a whole damn beter place wifout u..don make mi lose my cool..don tink u can humiliated mi lyk dat bcoz u r soo much older..in 1 nyte..u had lost my respect..de respect i hav 4 u..u r 1 of de ppl hum i used 2 look up 2..b grateful n respect..u make mi lose dat in juz 1 nyte..go n find de facts b4 u accused ppl..hey..ppl gt heart lah ok..gt feelings..can u tink 4 once..juz tink..hu r u 2 humiliate mi until lyk dat..juz hu de hell r u 2 b doin dat..eh..i neva ask anythg frm u..i don even noe u..i neva even seen u b4..n hu de hel r u 2 throw blames..accusations n humiliations at mi..juz tel mi wat rights du u hav 2 du dat..huh???u stil dare 2 treaten mi..2 lie 2 mi..wat r u showin mi..u tink u wil teach mi dis wae..come on lah..don tink im a fool..i noe u lied 2 mi..don blame mi if i look up 2 u s a liar..u showed mi dat..u wan 2 teach mi..u look at urself 1st..juz look at urself 1st..r u an angel..dont u hav faults??u hate mi..den juz hate mi..wats de use of u humiliatin mi lyk dat..xcuse mi..dos humiliations wake mi up..bt nt in de way dat u wan it..it has waken mi up nt 2 look up 2 a person until u hav known dem..it woke mi up frm tinkin dat ders no1 lyk u in dis world..gosh..rupe-rupenye ade jugak org macam gini kat dunia ni..

''eh..kite perempuan lah..jgn lah jadi murah sangat..''let mi rep u...
''eh..sape awak nak cakap gitu..awak fikirlah dulu..sape awak nak hina kite sampai gi2..ingatlah..semurah-murahnye seseorang..dia tetap ada hati..jiwa..perasaan..harga diri..sape awak nak hina org sampai macam gi2..''

pls ppl..pls..try 2understand mi ok..xpecialy u dydy..i noe we r gg thru such a tough time 2gether..bt im gg thru all dis 4 u n mi..4 us..no matter wat i hav 2 go thru..hell..fire..such humiliations wich feels lyk its goin 2 kill mi..i'll hold on k dydy..juz 4 ur sake..

de tears we've cried
de pain we hav 2 go thru
de hurt
de sacrifice dat we hav done
nthg stop mi frm lovin u
it caused a deep scar in our hearts
a scar wich wil neva fades
a scar wich we wil neva 4get wat happened
bt it doesnt matter
no matter hw long de scar is
no mater hw deep it is
no matter hw much bled n tears it has caused
it doesnt stop mi frm lovin u
nt 1 bit
coz no matter can cme in btw our love
no1 can stop us frm lovin...

Beary Hugzzz @ |11:11 AM|

Friday, February 20, 2004

ahh..its aready 8..thanx 2 my big bro hu wanted 2 use de comp wen i was juz abt 2 blog...haiz..i onli gt a few mins 2 blog b4 APM starts..cant miss it..so lets c wats der 2 write...

yeah..gav dydy his valentine n 9 mths present juz nw..aready gotten it ready by yest bt he din cme sch..his 2nd gift lah frm mi..apart frm his bday present..de crumpler bag wich costs mi a bomb..haha..nolah..nt dat exp..bday is onli once a yr..n de fact dat i love dydy soo much helps mi realie alot coz i don feel heartbroken abt partin wif my $$..hehe..s long s i gt him wif mi..im willin 2 sacrifice $..hopefuli i realie mean it frm my heart..haha..dydy was realie grateful 4 de gift..a card wich i made myself online n ka box full of chocs..ferrer rocher..mon cheri..cadbury n van houten..haha..mi gonna make my dydy s fat s mi..bt he sae he sayang 2 eat it s de gift was realie grand..hehe..yep..de gift may looks juz lyk a normal gift..bt it realie takes mi soo much of my effort 2 prepare everythg..took realie alot of time n effort..so tank goodness dydy appreaciates it..

n sch life..its bin fine..smetimes im realie 2 tired 2 du any work wen i reach hme..sch life has bin stress..bt im sure it can get mor stress den dis..its onli de 1st 2 mths..so juz bear wif it k shiqin..ppl wil b der 2 support mi..mentally..physically..in every way dat dey cld..thanx ya ppl...love u...

missin dydy rite nw..wont b c-in him tmr n sun..haha..onli 2 daes lah actuallie..de last ive seen him was at 12.20 juz nw..bt aready missin him nw..realie missin u dydy..he aready told mi he wont b callin tonite..gt ncc camp at dono wer..slpin over n wil b back tmr..told mi onli dis morn..haiz..he totalie 4get abt it til his fren asked him..dydy dydy..hw 4getful can u get..tink he's soo used 2 camp dat he easily 4get abt a camp..if mi..prepare everythg daes b4..yalah..nt always dat i go 2 a camp..dydy has bin nice..he has always bin since we're 2gether..wen we're both in gd mood..we realie can hav such gd time dat i neva wan 2 break away frm him even 4 a min..hehe..wel..hope tings wil realie b good 4 us..dydy..i'll always b der 4 u k..no matter wat..love u dear...

wel..gotta go nw n join my fam..dey r havin such a nice time der chattin in de livin room..n here i m bloggin away..APM startin in a few mins time niwae..so c ya guys real soon..n oh ya..my fam wana go hol dis march hols..haiz..hopefuli i cld go..sch is realie buggin mi..so c abt it...(*,*)

Beary Hugzzz @ |8:14 PM|

Sunday, February 15, 2004

finished 1 blog n here i m writin again..ders soo much 2 tel..haha..wel..went shoppin 4 my clothes on fri..wich i wore yest on v dae..went wif my mummy..ended up buyin my skirt n blouse in metro..so diff juz 2 find de rite skirt..thanx mummie 4 accompanyin mi..n buyin 4 mi..n on wed..had dikir performance..haha..de japs wer nice..atleast sme of dem..dey wer realie fun u noe..haha..i had a totalie fun time in de hall..xpecialy wen wer sang 2gether wif de japs..

de 1st ppl 2 wish mi happie v dae wer my friends..on fri..den abt 12 mummy i guess..den him..i dono wats wrong wif him..always msg mi at dos hour wich he n mi shld b slpin..dydy lose 2 him..coz he onli wish mi yest aft..dydy kinda angry dat he gets 2 wish mi happie v dae b4 dydy..n i wished him happie v dae b4 dydy get my wish..wat de crap im talkin..bt guess u guys get it..sorie k dydy..im tryin so hard nt 2 make tings worse..bt dydy realie hates him..2 de core..said he realie hated his face..gosh..hw cld u hate a person juz coz of his face..oklah..i admit dat always happen..nd 2 pacify dydy i realie gt nthg 2 du wif him..he has a gf..bt he's soo close 2 mi..he wished mi happie v dae b4 he wished his own gf..n he wanted 2 buy mi tings wen he shld put de gf b4 mi..haiz..its complicatin..n im stuck wer i m lyk hw cheese stucks 2 tings..wat de crap...

haiz..im confused..n i juz cant concentrate on my studies..wat de hel..im tryin..tryin 2 concentrate..tryin 2 du my best..i feel happie wen im able 2 du sme tings easily..bt i feel lyk shit wen i cant understand tings..wen i cant du sme tings..i realie feel lyk shit..hated myself soo much..bt i juz cant overcme my laziness..im stil de same old mi..its time i buck up..bt i juz cant..i juz cant push myself any further..i feel totalie useless..wat de hel m i doin..y de hel cant i b mor hardworkin..put in my best effort..giv myself mor space n time 4 my studies..wen can i finally b happie wif myself..wen i noe dat i hav put in my best n nothin less..hope dat dae wil cme soon..i hope..i wish..i'll work 4 it..dats de prob..wen wil i eva work 4 it...???

Beary Hugzzz @ |7:03 PM|

velentine's dae yest..start de dae de wrong note..dear daddy din call..waited 4 his call til 1+..haiz..den he sudd appear rite on my doorstep while i was gettin ready 2 eat..felt so shock..haven even bathe..haha..my big bro n sis wer expectin him 2 cme wif flowers..bt it seems he has no time 2 buy dem..by de time i get ready n all..it was 3+..took de mrt 2 city hall..walked arnd der n went de esplanade rooftop..bt decided 2 cme back wen de sun is settin so it wont b so hot..walked 2 suntec n all..dear daddy was searchin 4 my diary all over de place..wanted 2 get mi 1 bt i said next time can..feel so bad make tings so diff 4 him..went back 2 de esplanade rooftop at 6+..sat der..soo nice..jen called..ct 2..n oh ya..met ct..nurul..n de whole grp..haha..dey wer havin girls ride in town..bt syafiq n dono wich other guy joined dem later on..my bro called n asked wer i was..told him at esplanade rooftop n he asked 2 fetch him downstairs coz he dono hw 2 get der..so went all de way down 2 fetch him n his gf..finally get 2 c his gf..tink im de 1st in de fam..hehe..she's oklah..prettie..friendly..works in ps..so..wel..nt dat much comments..jen called on de wae 2 causeway 2 meet jon..wana watch movie..2 bad aready bot de tickets..if nt can join us in town..ct called 2..walao..my hp bil is realie risin high up..used de hp soo much..xpecialy yest..ppl r callin mi n lyk donwan 2 put down de fone..haiz..my Daddy is gonna scream at mi coz he's payin de bill..haha..sorie Daddy...

so walked arnd wif my bro n his gf til like 9+..den dey left n mi n dear daddy spent our time at de rooftop again..sittin der..den my sis called n said she's comin..n 2 wait 4 her..she stayed up at de rooftop 2 wif morgan 4 a while..eatin de pizza n den dey went down..left mi n dear der..den dat was de realie nice time..standin up der lookin down..der wer many other couples der..wat u xpect on v dae..den my dear was huggin mi n singin 4 mi..de romantic songs wich he remembers..thanx daddy..we stayed up der til like 11+..til dey wer closin up de place..we walked down n my sis was sittin by de river wif morgan..joined dem 4 a while b4 gg back at abt 12..morgan sent us hme..sent my dear straight infrnt of his blk..he wanted 2 take a bus at 1st,,dat guy..wat time aready..don feel like gg back also..haiz..it was a realie wonderful nite..wif my dear der wif mi..under de dark blue sky n de shinin stars..its nt always dat we get 2 du dat...

my valentine gift frm dydy..a v card..n dis ting wif his name n mine wich he puts inside a big frame..n chocs..ferrero rocher..dear dydy..he wanted 2 giv mi flowers soo much bt din get 2..cme over my hse aft tuition juz nw..11+..wanted 2 get mi a bouquet bt de shop was closed..nvm lah k dydy..keep dat 4 sme other time..nw he juz went back..so its kinda long he's here at my hse..frm 11+ til abt 6...niwae..i haven get him anythg..no time n dono wat 2 get..bt i'll get 4 him tmr..i guess i finally made up my mind wat 2 giv him..4 v dae s wel s our 9 mths anni..wich falls dis tue..so i'll giv him his gift on tue..gd idea..hehe...

dydy..thanx 4 eveythg dat u've given mi k..ur love xpecialy..n thanx 4 spendin de dae wif mi yest n todae..thanx 4 sacrificin soo much 4 mi..tank u dear..*muackz*...

Beary Hugzzz @ |6:48 PM|

Sunday, February 08, 2004

woke up coz ppl r lyk buggin mi 2 wake up since i slept kinda early yest..reached hme at 7+..sme of mu cuzs wer here..did sme of de malay hw n fell aslp rite on de bed..wif my books n stuffs rite der..feelin so tired coz i had onli a few hrs of slp dis few daes..n de nite b4..i had lyk 3hrs of slp..msgin my 'big bro' til i fel aslp abt 3..n he's lyk waitin 4 my rep..bt he wished mi gd nyte wen i din rep him sme time later sayin i mite b aslp..sorie 4 dat k..

started my dae on a bad note yest..woke up late 4 dikir prac..suppose 2 go out at 6.30..bt woke up at 6.30 instead..haven even iron my pe shirt..luckily no need 2 iron de skirt..wearin de quicksilver pants..nt always dat u get 2 wear dat 2 sch..my Daddy was also angry wif mi coz of de hp..bt i din du anythg 2 it lah k..hw wld i noe y de casing was sudd loose..haiz..n my hp..it died on mi..so sad..nw i gt no hp..bt Daddy lend mi his new 3100..thanx Daddy..haha..n luckily..my Daddy sent mi 2 sch..n i ended up waitin 4 jen at de bustop since she tot i'll b reachin late..dat girl..she lek-lek get ready juz bcoz she donwan 2 b waitin 4 mi at de bustop 4 long..wen we reach..daddy n fizar haven even reach..made mi kinda angry coz dey wer de ones hu asked us 2 b der by 7.30..cikgu asked 4 deir hp nums..daddy don hav 1 so called fizar n his mum said he juz left 4 sch..n du u noe hw far his hse is??hougang 2 bt timah..haiz..daddy cme lyk minutes later..

was kinda frustrated wen dey said de prac wil begin at 1..coz dey nd time 2 decide on de moves..n de time was lyk 8+ den..so wat shld we du 4 lyk 5 hrs??daddy was feelin real bad wen i showed dat face..he stil had 2 go 4 his ncc..he asked mi 2 use his atm card n withdraw money 4 mi 2 spend..haha..m i so money-faced daddy??atlast we tot we'l go westmall..eat n den go back sch..i din tel daddy im gg back 2 sch so he's angry..n he's real angry..jen said he's so scary..neva seen him so angry..mi 2..eww..i don dare 2 c his face bt jen said his face was real scary..we ended up gg my hse instead of gg westmall..jen wanted 2 cme so ok lah..leave hme at 11 2 go back sch...dey wer aready practicing wen we enter de malay class..so we ended up learnin de steps frm dem..quite oklah..n de song..jen was sayin its realie meaningful of de song..

n yar..wen we wer practicin sme of de guys wer playin wif de pole n it fell wen it hit de fan..kena my leg n kena jen's head..she was cryin coz it was pain..der was s lump on her head..bengkak..benjol..saw daddy der n asked him if he has a towel..he den brought jen 2 de ncc rm n du sme stuffs on her head..n coz of dat jen tot im angry wif her..bt im nt k jen..im nt angry at u..im juz tinkin abt sme stuffs..haiz..ders a misunderstandin btw us bt hope she'll understand dat im nt angry wif her...

finish de dikir prac at abt 2..coz dey had started early..went orchard wif daddy aft dat..we kinda had an argument frm morn all de way til in de bus..n he even accused mi of havin an affair..daddy daddy..i was shocked 2 hear dat..bt i den smiled..kinda cant beliv my daddy accused mi of dat..a smile on de outside..leavin a deep scar on de inside..bt he den apologised sayin he realie lose it..its alrite daddy..lets put all dat behind us..bt we did had a gd time yest..met umi n jerome on de way 2 fort cannin..daddy wanted 2 relax der..it was indeed relaxin..de wind was real nice..n ders a function smewwer der..sio ders many ppl walkin abt..bt doesnt matter abt dat..left der at abt 6 n juz s we wer walkin out of der..my Daddy called..he sounded a bit angry wen i said im in orchard..bt its alrite..atleast i told him de truth..i don wanna b lyin..

guess i'll get goin nw..stil has 2 search 4 de malay stuffs on de net..cikgu is realie smethg..she handed all de malay stuffs 2 mi..de boards..de competitions..n wateva stuffs..she even asked mi 2 b suwandy's buddy n guide him..haiz..i don even tok 2 him xcept 4 sme small stuffs..n jen juz msged..sayin she's bored n asked if im gg out later..n she wanna cme my hse..gd also if she cme..nt so bored..bt i hav a pile of work 2 du..n my cuz is makin de bday party here..haiz..his hse is juz lyk 2 flats away frm my hse..y cant dey juz make it der..im bein bad here..bt seriously..wats de diff of makin it here n der..so der..dey hav 2 clean up de place aft de mess is done..n here..dey can juz leave de mess n make us clean it up..it does make sense rite...

Beary Hugzzz @ |11:09 AM|

Monday, February 02, 2004

i'm damn frustrated rite nw.. spoil my whole day's mood..all bcoz of him..luckily i hav jen..she told mi don let him spoil my day..i stil hav her..thanx jen..u r my true fren..niwae..she's on de way here..atleast i hav her 2 spend time wif..its true rite wat xin rong said 2 mi..wen u nd sme1..dey r always nt der 4 u..i agree 2 dat..bt its worsenin nw..i realize smethg..he's nt der 4 mi wen i nd him..everytime..nt smetimes..i donwan 2 tink abt it..2 look at it dat way..bt seriously..i noe i cant get away frm de truth..its de truth..dat he cant b here wif mi wen i realie need him..he's meant 2 b my pillar of support..he'll b der wen i need him..at all times..bt y isnt he??y cant he??y muz it always b others hum i hav 2 rely on s my illar of support??s my pillar of strengh??y did he always hav 2 leavi mi feelin lonely n depressed??y muz my strengh cme frm other ppl n nt him??daddy..wers ur hand wen i need it??wers ur promises dat u always wil b here wif mi??dat u wil hold my hand in every step i take..dat u wil hug mi wen i feel cold..dat u wil whisper sweet loving words 2 mi wen i feel insecure..wer r dey daddy??juz wer r dey??y m i feelin so hurt rite nw..y m i feelin so sad..so lonely..so insecure..??u said dat u wil protect mi..u wil take care of mi..u wil bear anythg juz 2 take care of mi even if it means riskin ur life..even if it means u wil die..bt of coz i wont let it happen..

i'm nt askin 4 much daddy..im juz askin dat u can b here wif mi makin mi feel secure..i wana live in ur hug..i wana live in de comfort of ur arms..i told u rite daddy yest..niwae..thanx 4 tokin 2 mi til nearly 2 in de morn yest..its bin so long dat we tok til dat time..tho we quarreled half of de time..n its all my fault..it has always bin my fault...

nw..let mi find my own happiness..happiness wich i wil get frm other ppl xcept u..i wil find my own happiness daddy..i wil find my own way..don worrie..i'll b fine...

Beary Hugzzz @ |12:03 PM|

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